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Deliverance Progress Report 6.10.2017

Hey everyone!

Hope all is well with you all today. This is just a journal post. Catching up.

First of all, glory to God Almighty and thank You LORD JESUS, for bringing amazing new people into my life! I had been walking alone in the wilderness this entire year but a couple weeks ago The Lord brought some wonderful men and women of God who are on FIRE for Jesus into my world! New friendships are developing. I am blessed beyond measure! Praise God!

It all began a few days before my birthday when The Lord led a Sister in Christ to reach out to me after I had posted a prayer request in a Facebook prayer group about needing help. My words were something like this, “Sister needs prayer. Satan has me in a choke-hold, only Jesus can save me.” So, I would up in a chatroom group about deliverance. I had no idea what would happen. I assumed they were going to pray for me if I showed up. I had it in my mind that I was not going to go.

After the weekend was over on that Monday, thirty minutes before the meeting began, The Holy Spirit quickened in me and I remembered it was time for the group. I got there and it was amazing, I was not the only one receiving deliverance that night. I was on webcam and the Brethren/deliverance team called out multiple spirits and went to war for me to be freed. It wasn’t until a Brother led me to ask The Holy Spirit to break my heart that I had a breakthrough.  A few seconds later I began weeping uncontrollably as The Spirit of God touched me.

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I’m a work in progress. I am learning that deliverance is a process, not a one time deal. There is more to come. I am still dealing with a strongman or heavy demon that is very stubborn and will not leave. It is very frustrating because this spirit attacks my body anytime day and night. I’m thinking this is one like Jesus says that only comes out by prayer and fasting as in Matthew 17:21.

I have learned that when demons are cast out they come out in the forms of yawning, burping, coughing up or spitting, maybe some other ways. I have experienced all of these. I had no idea the roots of the problems in my life were spiritual!

By the way, I am NO LONGER BIPOLAR! That’s a spirit!  I am still taking medications right now. Do not ever go off your meds without consulting your doctor and as led by The Lord because your flesh will react as it is used to having them. There are spirits attached to almost everything! Mental illnesses, pain, epilepsy, trauma, all else. You CAN BE FREE!

Christians can have demons. I tried to explain that to a Brother in Christ that I haven’t talked with in months and he didn’t agree or get it at first. I didn’t either before. I did NOT believe in deliverance ministry.  UNTIL IT HAPPENED TO ME… I just thought that only people in the world who did very wicked things could be possessed by demons. Truth is, we as Christians can have demons as well. In our members. Our spirit is saved by God and though The Holy Spirit of God dwells within us, our flesh and our minds/will and emotions are not saved like the part of us that lives on.

Learn more about Christians having demons HERE at greatbiblestudy.com

More Resources:

Check out The Book Pigs in The Parlor by Frank and Ida Mae Hammond. Get it on  AMAZON or check your local Christian bookstore.

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Demon Buster is awesome with many, many prayers and spiritual warfare help. Adjust your speakers if need be because music will play when you go to the site.

God is teaching me to trust Him. I believe that is the major point of this trial if not one of the most major. But we cannot figure Him out. Then there’s the getting rid of my pride. I did not realize that my heart had hardened over time and there’s so much pain beneath that I have been ignoring and healing is needed. The MAIN REASON I am going through this is because of the open door I created with sin. There are consequences to sin. As a Child of God, I am being chastened. However, in the process, I am learning more and more about casting out demons, deliverance and spiritual warfare, and that the WHOLE BIBLE IS REAL TODAY!  The churches are teaching that all of these are no longer for today’s world, but I have witnessed them. This is real! Jesus spoke the TRUTH and this is TRUTH for TODAY’S WORLD also!!!

Mark 16:17-18  (KJV)

17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.


I want to be a part of this Christianity that you can experience! Miracles, signs, and wonders. Showing the world the truth and that JESUS is real! The BIBLE is real! Cover to Cover!!! I encourage you to check this out for yourselves. Important note: DO NOT CAST DEMONS OUT OF SOMEONE WHO IS NOT BORN AGAIN! It will do them harm.  They must be born again.

I’m taking this thing one step at a time. If you have found yourself in a similar situation and would like more information, just message me at the “Drop me a line” tab at the top of my blog. God bless!

 

Morning Nap Dream 6/8/2017

I just woke from a morning nap and as I pondered the things that happened in my dream, the following verses came to me:

John 1:29 (KJV)

The next day John seeth Jesus coming unto him, and saith, Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world.

Isaiah 1:18 (KJV)

Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.


The scene that stands out the most in my dream is when it had just came a huge snow outside. It was so very deep. I could tell because I had to hold onto the railing of the ramp that led down to the driveway and it was icy on the bottom as I tried to walk down it. Then I saw myself holding onto the backside of it with the rails covered in inches of snow. I scaled along until I fell off! I fell down into piles of snow. It did not hurt though. Finally, I recall saying to myself “Why did I come out here?” once I stood up. I was puzzled as if I had forgotten what I originally came outside to do.

2 Corinthians 9:15 (KJV)

Thanks be unto God for his unspeakable gift.

I found it really interesting that on unlockingyourdreams.org with John Paul Jackson, here is the meaning of snow:

Snow – blessing; refreshing; righteousness; purity; grace (Isaiah 55:10-11a)

 

Spiritually Transferred Diseases: Sex out of Wedlock. 

Post coming soon. Don’t sleep around in fornication and adultery. The spiritual price is far too high. Google “soul ties” and “spirit husbands.”  You will regret this the rest of your life. Only Jesus can save you…

Also, there is way more to sex than pleasure. When you lose your virginity, the shedding of blood is sacred and important. God created it this way as it was meant for the husband to break the wife’s hymen on their wedding night. There is to be a blood covenant between them. I am learning so much on this topic and it is so very important! God bless.

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Why does God allow Satan to attack us?

Via gotquestions.org

 

Question: “Why does God allow Satan to attack us?”

Answer: Satan’s attacks against us come in various forms. 1) He uses the ungodly world (which he controls, 1 John 5:19) to stir up fleshly lusts within us that tempt us to sin. 2) He uses the unbelieving world to attempt to deceive us with worldly “wisdom” opposed to God’s truth. 3) He uses false Christians to try to mislead us into a false gospel centered on a false Jesus. 4) He sometimes physically afflicts us or our loved ones with sickness, crime, tragedy, or persecution. Knowing that God is the sovereign Ruler of the universe, we naturally ask, why does God allow Satan to attack us in these ways?

The Bible teaches that God allows Satan a certain amount of freedom (see Job 1:12), but that freedom is always limited. Satan cannot do all that he wishes. Satan chooses to attack God’s children (see 1 Peter 5:8), and his design is always evil; Satan is a murderer (John 8:44). In contrast, God’s design in allowing certain satanic attacks is always good; God loves His children (1 John 4:16). Joseph faced many satanic attacks in his lifetime, but in the end he could speak with confidence of two opposing purposes behind the same events: “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good” (Genesis 50:20).

We cannot blame God for what Satan does. Our vulnerability to satanic attack started with Adam’s choice to follow Satan’s lying suggestions in the garden of Eden. When Satan attacked Job through the loss of his family, wealth, and health, Job didn’t blame God. Notice Job 1:21–22, “And he (Job) said: Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return there. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. In all this Job did not sin nor charge God with wrong.”

As believers experience the attacks of Satan, they can trust the truth of Romans 8:28, “We know that all things work together for good to those who love God…” Therefore, the assumption is that we will experience “good” things and “bad” things, but “all” of these things can be made to contribute toward “good” ends as God works them out. So even the attacks of Satan, although evil, can and will have a “good” result, ultimately, as God uses them to conform us to Christ, His Son (see Romans 8:29). Attacks from Satan, along with all other tribulations, can cause believers to love God more, resist Satan more, practice patience, and grow stronger in our faith in many other ways. Praise God for His sovereign protection. Thank Him for His plan to make everything—even Satan’s attacks—”work together for good” for you!

Satan Is Out to Destroy Your Faith!

A Message for Those Whose Faith Is Being Tested

David Wilkerson
June 7, 2010

Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompense of reward” (Hebrews 10:35). If you are a Christian, you are in a fierce war. In fact, you’re in a lifeanddeath battle for your faith. Satan is determined to shipwreck and destroy the faith of all of God’s elect. And the stronger your faith, the greater will be his attack against it.

You see, unshakable faith in the Lord causes hell to rage. Nothing poses a greater threat to Satan’s kingdom than a Christian who is unmovable in faith. Why? It is by faith and its released power that Satan’s kingdom is subdued. By faith, righteousness is born and demonic fires are quenched. God’s promises are obtained and the mouths of lions are shut.

By faith, God’s faithful escape the edge of the sword. Out of weakness they are made strong. They become brave in battle, turning the devil’s army to flight. They endure mockery, beatings, stonings. If they are locked in jail they sing. Simply put, faith sustains those who possess it!

Paul warned Timothy that in times of trial some would cast aside their faith: “Some having put away concerning faith have made shipwreck” (1 Timothy 1:19). He added that Satan would attempt to “overthrow the faith of some” (2 Timothy 2:18). Therefore Paul charged Timothy to fight a determined warfare, “holding faith, and a good conscience” (1 Timothy 1:19).

The apostle Peter came under a ferocious attack against his faith. His trust in Jesus so enraged hell that Satan asked permission to sift him to see if he would stand. “Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren” (Luke 22:3132).

Some reading this message are in the storm of your life.

Jesus’ disciples endured pounding waves in a stormtossed boat, while their Master lay fast asleep. Finally, as the storm threatened to overwhelm the boat, they cried out to Jesus, accusing him of not caring about their fate. “Master, careth thou not that we perish?” (Mark 4:38). Jesus calmed the storm but was incredulous at his disciples’ lack of faith. He asked, “Why are ye so fearful? How is it that ye have no faith?” (4:40).

Maybe right now you are facing a terrible storm in life. Your troubles seem only to accelerate: money problems, marriage problems, job troubles, enemies coming at you like pounding waves to sink you. A sea of trouble rages inside you, but the Lord seems to be sleeping through it all. Tell me, has your faith been sapped? Is it ebbing slowly away with each new disappointment? Do you say in your heart, “God, don’t you care? Will you let me go down in this storm?”

It is for just such a time that Jesus spoke these awesome words: “Shall not God avenge [protect] his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them? I tell you that he will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth?” (Luke 18:78).

Note Jesus’ question here: Will he find faith in his people as they endure days of darkness and oppression? In recent years I’ve wondered whether Jesus would ask such a question today. For decades multitudes flocked to churches. But what Jesus is really asking is, “Will the faith of these hold out when the shaking storms come?” Our troubles can be heaped so high, and the shaking of nations can come so swiftly, that some will lose hope and give up. I ask you: Will Jesus find faithfulness in your troubling hour?

God has given us a powerful weapon to use against Satan’s attacks on our faith.

Here is our weapon: We are not to try to figure everything out. Rather, we are to set our eyes on “the great cloud of witnesses” already in glory who have made it through with their faith intact. “Wherefore seeing we also are encompassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us” (Hebrews 12:1).

What a picture. This verse depicts an army of victorious saints from every era, beholding us watchfully like a crowd in the bleachers. They’re wearing crowns of righteousness and waving palms as they cheer us on in our race: “Run with patience! We fought to the death and didn’t fall. God kept us, our faith prevailed. The truth works: We won! We are overcomers. So you keep on. You can overcome in hard times.”

Noah is among this great cloud of witnesses. Think of how long his battle lasted. His testimony tells us, “I held on for 120 years in spite of violence, rampant sin and mockery. You can overcome, too.”

To hold onto faith in these present times, I believe we must be alert to three lies the enemy brings against us.

1. Satan misrepresents the Lord’s refining process.

All the prophets foretold of God’s people going into the refiner’s fire. “I will bring the third part through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them as gold is tried” (Zechariah 13:9). “He is like a refiner’s fire, and like fullers’ soap: and he shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver: and he shall purify the sons of Levi, and purge them as gold and silver, that they may offer unto the Lord an offering in righteousness” (Malachi 3:23).

When silver or gold is refined by fire, all dross comes to the surface. This includes all impurities, alloys, lesser metals, dirt, little spots and speckles of waste.

Likewise, as we sit under God’s Word and let its light shine on our hearts, all impurities are brought to the surface. Throughout this process, unbelief is being separated from us by the Lord’s refining fire. Yet it is during such times, when God is purifying us, that Satan brings his worst lies to accuse us. He tries to place our focus on our impurities rather than on the Lord’s unconditional love.

2. Satan tries to shipwreck our faith by distorting these loving chastenings of the Lord.

The devil will try to convince you that your present chastening is from God’s displeasure at you. He wants you to believe it’s all happening because of God’s anger. But the New Testament speaks of chastisement as a kind of “educational correction.” Consider this famous passage from Hebrews:

“Despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him: for whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then ye are bastards, and not sons.

“Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live? For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.

“Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby. Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees; and make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed” (Hebrews 12:513).

Jesus spoke of chastisement when he declared to the apostle John, “As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent” (Revelation 3:19).

Likewise, the writer of Proverbs says, “My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of his correction: for whom the Lord loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth” (Proverbs 3:1112). Indeed, when the author of Hebrews says God “scourgeth every son he receiveth,” the meaning suggests a “rod of correction.”

Finally, Paul adds this important word: “When we are judged, we are chastened of the Lord, that we should not be condemned with the world” (1 Corinthians 11:32).

Right now, what you are going through as a child of God is no accident. It is not some isolated calamity or trial. Every test and fiery trial is under your Father’s careful scrutiny. And there is a purpose in it all, “for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.”

Chastisement never feels joyful. It is grievous, as if a strange thing is happening to us. But afterward it produces in us the peaceable fruit of righteousness. Yet this happens only for those who allow themselves to be trained by chastisement.

3. Satan will lie to you when chastening includes suffering that continues with seemingly no answer.

Your ongoing trial may involve physical suffering, unemployment, children who rebel, faithless friends, mental distress, turmoil or pain. As you endure day after day, Satan will whisper to you as he did to Job: “The righteous don’t suffer. If God heard you — if he saved you and his promises are true — you should have been rescued immediately. Where is your God? Is this what faith gets you?”

Beloved, do not cast your faith aside! Satan is a liar. You are suffering because God loves you, because he cares. Think about it: You asked the Lord to make you more like him. Only he knows what that will require. He knows your suffering, and he won’t let you be destroyed by it. In fact, he knows just when to make a way of escape for you. He won’t act until that appointed time, and “will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it” (1 Corinthians 10:13).

Be assured, God has everything under control. The pain, the lingering sickness, the prayer that seems to go unanswered — he knows all about them. And he knows why he hasn’t lifted your trial before now. As happened with Paul, he is using the “thorn” in your flesh to work toward your blessing. Indeed, the very thing you want so much — the answer you believe is so necessary — might be something God knows isn’t best for you. If he ultimately says, “No,” you must yield, knowing he is preserving your soul and answering you in a much better way unknown to you.

Through it all, the great cloud of witnesses urges you, “Continue fighting the battle with faith. Your hands hang down, but he will provide the faith to lift them up. Your knees are feeble, but he will strengthen them. Don’t turn aside. Stay in the race!”

Multitudes fall for the devil’s lies when they are chastened. They allow a root of bitterness to enter their heart and soon are nurturing an anger toward God: “Why did the Lord allow this? I tried so hard to please him, trusting him so much. Why is he letting me down?” God has warned us about such times: “Don’t let this happen. Instead, be diligent, be careful, holding onto your confidence. It has great recompense of reward.”

The Lord desires a people who will hold onto faith even if they suffer the loss of all things.

Consider this powerful word from the author of Hebrews:

“Call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions; partly, whilst ye were made a gazingstock both by reproaches and afflictions; and partly, whilst ye became companions of them that were so used. For ye had compassion of me in my bonds, and took joyfully the spoiling of your goods, knowing in yourselves that ye have in heaven a better and an enduring substance.

“Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompense of reward. For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise. For yet a little while, and he that shall come will come, and will not tarry.

“Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him. But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul” (Hebrews 10:3239).

Here is a description of a people greatly afflicted after they were born again. They lost all their goods and possessions because of their testimony. Yet their faith kept them joyful.

I have been told of a Christian multimillionaire — one of Texas’s most successful businessmen — who lost it all. When hard times hit he struggled just to put food on the table. But God put his heart at rest, and the man learned to see the Lord as his sole provider. He and his family have not gone hungry.

Sometimes I wonder if the days of our American lifestyle are numbered. If that day comes, all of us will be affected, all of us feeling pain. And such a day will reveal much about God’s people. You see, it’s easy to talk about faith when all is well. It’s a different matter when we feel prolonged pain. That is when we are called to take the spoiling of our goods joyfully.

Paul kept his faith through good times and bad.

In his final days Paul could boast, “I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith” (2 Timothy 4:7). Think about Paul’s testimony at that point. He could say, “Satan sent messengers to fight me in Jerusalem, Damascus, Asia, Ephesus, Antioch, Corinth. But I kept the faith.

“He tried to sink me in the stormtossed Mediterranean. Three times I was shipwrecked, bobbing in the deep night and day. But I kept the faith.

“Four times the Jews beat me with thirtynine stripes. I have been cast into prison, three times beaten with rods, stoned and left for dead. But I kept the faith.

“I’ve faced peril in the country and the city, in the wilderness and the sea. I’ve been robbed by my own countrymen. I’ve been placed in peril by false brethren. But I kept the faith.

“I’ve been so weary at times, full of bodily pains, enduring sleepless nights. I’ve been hungry and thirsty, cold and naked, heavily laden with cares of all kinds. Yet I kept the faith.

“I’ve been troubled, perplexed on every side, distressed and persecuted, but never cast down. I’ve never been shaken in my faith. Through it all, my trust in the Lord has never been destroyed.”

I leave you with words spoken to sustain us in the days ahead.

“Unto the upright there ariseth light in the darkness: he is gracious, and full of compassion, and righteous. Surely he shall not be moved forever: the righteous shall be in everlasting remembrance. He shall not be afraid of evil tidings: his heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord. His heart is established, he shall not be afraid, until he see his desire upon his enemies.

“He hath dispersed, he hath given to the poor; his righteousness endureth forever; his horn shall be exalted with honor. The wicked shall see it, and be grieved” (Psalm 112:4, 610).

“The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore” (121:78).

“In the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock” (27:5).

The Lord says to all his children: “Call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me” (50:15). May you remain faithful to call on him in your trial. Cast your cares on him always!

My Journey Through The Wilderness 2017

I have been on quite the spiritual journey in a dark sense now for pretty much all of this year 2017. It’s just about June and I feel led to blog about the matter and what’s been going on. Maybe you can relate, maybe you are not there yet. Maybe you are RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW with a sigh of relief that you are not the only one going through all of this! Regardless, through it all, we never face any battle alone. Jesus is ALWAYS there with us.

It began with research, watching deliverance seminars on YouTube, the purchasing of a couple books, studying and applying self deliverance (casting demons out of myself in The Name of Jesus, for example, the spirit of anxiety), leading to a heavier internal situation that I am currently living with. It’s like Incubus and Succubus only it does not only bother me when I am sleeping. I am praying for God’s Grace everyday.

So here’s what I’m noticing so far:

I have not yet learned to praise HIM in the storm.

I have not yet learned to appreciate this thorn.

  • I am studying 2 Corinthians 12:9

Sins that were hidden are sort of coming to the light right now. I can see my life a little more clearly spiritually in this wilderness.

I have been complaining A LOT.

I have pleaded and begged GOD to take this away from me!!! So far the answer is no, but I believe He has shown me I am being chastened. Everything in heaven, on the earth and beneath the earth is subject to The Name of Jesus Christ, but the demons that are afflicting me are allowed to stay for now. I am coming to terms with this daily. I have the worst negative thoughts like “Man, I must be the dirtiest rotten sinner ever!” as I sit in self pity. There’s so much more than the actual affliction though.

I’m not quite sure how I got myself into this mess.  I have learned one thing. If you go digging into and researching the spirit world or the occult anyplace, demons can and will manifest. For me, it all began at the beginning of this year when I was fascinated with the idea that there just might be a spiritual cause for my Bipolar Disorder because of some amazing points I had read online and how it all seemed to fit. I know we live in a spiritual world. There are only angels and demons, no ghosts and all the other stuff that is man made. Seeing a dead relative is actually seeing a demonic manifestation or apparition. Psychics only hear from familiar spirits, they have no special ability. Infected people can hear from familiar spirits too even if they don’t want to. This is where I believe Schizophrenia comes in. But that’s a different blog for another day I hope. Once I make it through this trial and if the Rapture of The Church hasn’t happened yet, I will certainly be updating my pages at the top of my main blog site. I have been learning so much about how we can really be set free.

I have acquired a lot of knowledge and can back it up with what Jesus said in The Bible. People can still be healed and have demons cast out of them to be free. Anyone who is a true born-again believer can do these things.

Mark 3:14-15 (KJV)

14 And he ordained twelve, that they should be with him, and that he might send them forth to preach,

15 And to have power to heal sicknesses, and to cast out devils:

 

Mark 16:16-18 (KJV)

16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.

17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.

 

John 14:11-13 (KJV)

11 Believe me that I am in the Father, and the Father in me: or else believe me for the very works’ sake.

12 Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.

13 And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.


So much to say… On the positive side,

I am becoming more reliant upon God and therefore growing closer to Him.

My eyes have been opened so very wide. I will never see life the same again at all.

Now I’ve discovered this power is real but I cannot operate in it yet in ministry because I am being chastened by The Lord. This dark and difficult time is for my good though. I know my suffering is not in vain. It is certainly humbling. More to come later..

God bless you, and know that your suffering is not in vain. Amen.