My First Ride in An Ambulance!

I went to bed early Friday night with a sinus infection. Breathing troubles and sore throats from sinus drainage are no fun as most of you know I’m sure. I tossed and turned with a few minutes sleep here or there. At 3 a.m. I opened my eyes and rose to go to the bathroom and just 3 short feet away from the bed the terrifying reality hit me that I could not breathe AT ALL! My windpipe was completely shut off in my throat. I got to the living room as quick as I could where my husband was awake still on the computer playing a game. He saw panic and the tears rolling down my face and when I showed him by motioning with my hands that I couldn’t breathe. He called 911 and they were there in minutes to put me on a stretcher, getting me into the ambulance for vitals and a breathing treatment.

From the moment I knew I was not going to be able to breathe on my own, I immediately began praying inside from the heart. No one could hear me, but my God and Lord Jesus Christ could. I repented for all of my sins known and unknown and I prayed for my family. I’ve never experienced anything like it. God was amazing and He brought Bible Verses to mind. In my head I repeated this favorite:

2 Timothy 1:12  (KJV)

12 For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.

Up until yesterday morning at 3 a.m. I’d never had a near death experience. It’s different for everyone I guess, I mean I wasn’t hanging on the edge of a cliff or doing flips on a motorcycle, but death was right there just the same ready to take me out. But you know what? My GOD was and is BIGGER. This incident has changed my life for the better. The ONE Who gives us the breath of life when we enter the womb is the same one who chooses when to take it. I am so glad that my hands are in The Hands of GOD, not only GOD, but my FATHER. Jesus Christ paid for me with His Precious BLOOD on The CROSS and now as a born again Christian, I am an heir and a co-heir with Christ. I am a Daughter of God, I belong to Him. Therefore, anything coming against me must first go through Him-it has to get past the Blood of JESUS. This is the protection of The Believer. God’s will shall be done, but there’s no rest or true safety outside the Shadow of The Almighty. The Amplified version puts it like this:

Psalm 91

He who [a]dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no foe can withstand].


Later on yesterday after getting home from the ER, sitting at my desk, The LORD brought back an old song from many years.

“Sick and Tired of this world
There’s no more air
Trippin’ over myself
Goin’ nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
And I took a dive
And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won’t forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you.”

“On The Way Down” by Ryan Cabrera
(Actually God held onto me!!! Thank YOU JESUS!)
God used this song from an earlier time of hardship in my life to remind me today of how much He has brought me through and how He’s The only Reason I’m still alive. I could have died this morning when my breathing was shut off inside, but He has other plans and His Mercy and Grace are so mind blowing! Jesus loves us so much. The world and the enemy send the message of condemnation, but if we take the time to read or hear The Bible, The WORD of God, we will see we are THE JOY that was set before Jesus going to the Cross!

Hebrews 12:2 (KJV)
Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

GOD loves us all so very much that He gave His only Begotten Son The Lord Jesus…(John 3:16)
JESUS LOVES YOU! †

To GOD be THE GLORY!

Demons & More Demons

Leviathan, Arrested Development, Double-Mindedness, Vashti, Jezebel, all the Spirit Husbands, and my rock hardened heart… Must be like billions of demons eh? They don’t operate alone. It is my understanding that they operate in groups. I’m not an expert yet, but you think I would be by now! I have no idea how the networking of demons is orchestrated inside of me. Sometimes I get mad because I see other Christians walking through life just fine…they have demons too. It’s just their demons aren’t exposed. Once you ruffle their feathers, the whole bunch acts up. My demons were uncovered this year as a result of sin. Oh what a learning experience…

It’s amazing how sin really hardens our hearts. Not only sin, but the defense mechanisms we put up when the warning lights come on that something potentially hurtful lurks ahead. Like this summer for me. My 92 year old Grandma moved hundreds of miles away and I knew I wouldn’t see her as much… The walls went up. I felt nothing. Two days before her flight I actually felt like I was in another zone in my body. Weird.

Trauma. How much trauma have you experienced in your life? For me, it began with my birth as my Mother had a Cesarean. Then the house fire at age 2 where I watched everything we had burn to the ground in the family van. The frightening nightmares that I had as a result of watching the movie Child’s Play with my teenage sister were rough… I mean, Kid Sister was tossed out in no time. I tried to give my dolls away because I just knew they were plotting against me, or just plain wicked. What a mind warping experience. Major spirits of fear and phobias.

I also experienced a lot of rejection by the opposite sex in dating/having relationships. I would fall for the wrong guy (at the time I didn’t know it was a spiritual set up against me by the enemy). At the end of junior high I pushed myself to lose so much weight. I did that and I was still not accepted the way I desired. It didn’t matter how beautiful I was, or how talented…there was an assignment against me in the spirit realm. You see, everyone hears that God has a plan for their life. I’m here to tell you that the devil has a plan for your life too. Ask God to open your eyes and reveal things to you. Only God knows the future but Satan can sniff out or sort of catch a glimpse of the blessings God has for us around the corner. This enrages him. Satan and the kingdom of darkness hate human beings because we are all created in the image of God-whether we are living for Him or not. Lately I’m beginning to see how my heart has been hardened over the years. Many experiences brought different types of pain, and with the pain emotional wounds. Only The Holy Spirit can heal your deep wounds, the ones in your very soul. It’s called Inner Healing. Google it. He’s beginning a new work in me right now, healing me up, taking down the walls ever so gently.

Being able to cry is a blessing, don’t take it for granted. One thing you can do if you’re struggling with feeling numb and the hard heart, as a Born-Again Believer you can just ask The Holy Spirit to break your heart and He will help you feel again, give you the ability to cry.  The Holy Spirit bringing you to tears is freedom, Hallelujah!

No matter how many demons, It’s gonna be okay.

Falling apart is okay cuz God puts us together in new ways xoxo

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You Don’t Have to Take The Broken Road…

TURN AROUND by Matt Maher

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Young man on the side of the road
Lost and beat up with nowhere to go
Smells like a hangover from days ago
He does what he can to survive

Single mom with a dead end job
Ninety hour week just to keep what she’s got
With the bills that add up and now she’s caught
She does what she can to survive

Well, let me say
That love won’t take away the pain
But don’t be afraid
‘Cause it will never walk away

If you’re scared that you don’t matter
If you’re lost and need to be found
If you’re looking for a Savior
All you gotta do is turn around

Some turn to a bottle
Some turn to a drug
Some turn to another’s arms
But it seems like it’s never enough

Well I won’t say, that you will never fail again
But there is grace
To wash away your every sin

If you’re scared that you don’t matter
If you’re lost and need to be found
If you’re looking for a Savior
All you gotta do is turn around

No one listens to you anymore
And your heart has broken down
You don’t need to move
Love has come to you
All you gotta do is turn around
All you gotta do is turn around
Turn around

You don’t have to take the broken road
You can turn around and come back home

You don’t have to take the broken road
You can turn around and come back home

You don’t have to take the broken road
You can turn around and come back home

If you’re scared that you don’t matter
If you’re lost and need to be found
If you’re looking for a Savior
All you gotta do is turn around

No one listens to you anymore
And your heart has broken down
You don’t need to move
Love has come to you
All you gotta do is turn around
All you gotta do is turn around

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FOLLOWING GOD AND HIS CALL ON YOUR LIFE!

FOLLOWING GOD AND HIS CALL ON YOUR LIFE!

Separation will oftentimes be part of your development as a Christian. Before you can take on something new, the Lord may ask you to let go of something you already have. Obedience is meant by saying goodbye to relationships and things dear to your heart. A life you’ve known… left behind. Strong faith will enable you to say yes to what the Lord commands.

Moving ahead in the mist of uncertainty can be another aspect of following the Lord. Unwavering trust in your heavenly Father will enable you to answer the Divine call wholeheartedly – even though specific details aren’t given.
Following God requires living by obedient faith. That means: trusting the Holy Spirit to be your guide; when you don’t see how all the pieces fit together (John 16:13-15); believing that God always works for your good and His glory (Romans 8:28); and having a desire to please your Father.

Question: Will you be ready when He calls?
Personal bible study
Sista Darlene Clark
3/14/2017

 

Bible verses about comparing yourself to others

via biblereasons.com

“One of the fastest ways of discouraging yourself and getting trapped by the sin of envy is when you compare yourself to others. God has a specific plan for you and you won’t accomplish that plan by looking at others. 

Count your blessings and not the blessings of someone else. Let God control your life and give Satan no opportunity to discourage you from the purpose God has for you. Know that all you need is Christ. Set your mind at peace by focusing on the Lord.”

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What does the Bible say?

(All in The King James Version)

 

Galatians 6:4-5

But let every man prove his own work, and then shall he have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another.

For every man shall bear his own burden.

 

2 Corinthians 10:12

 For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with some that commend themselves: but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise.

 

1 Thessalonians 4:11-12

11 And that ye study to be quiet, and to do your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you;

12 That ye may walk honestly toward them that are without, and that ye may have lack of nothing.

 

James 3:16

For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work.

 

Proverbs 14:30

A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy the rottenness of the bones.

 

1 Corinthians 3:3

 For ye are yet carnal: for whereas there is among you envying, and strife, and divisions, are ye not carnal, and walk as men?

 

Romans 12:2

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

 

1 John 2:15

Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

 

Philippians 2:3

Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.

 

Galatians 1:10

 For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ.

 

Isaiah 2:22

Cease ye from man, whose breath is in his nostrils: for wherein is he to be accounted of ?

 

Mark 12:30

And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.

 

Psalm 37:5

 Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

 

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

 

1 Timothy 6:6-8

But godliness with contentment is great gain.

For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out.

And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.

 

Psalm 23:1

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

1 Thessalonians 5:18

 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.

 

Psalm 136:1-2

136 O give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.

O give thanks unto the God of gods: for his mercy endureth for ever.

 

2 Corinthians 10:17

But he that glorieth, let him glory in the Lord.

 

1 Corinthians 11:1

Be ye followers of me, even as I also am of Christ.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

 

Psalm 138:8

The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy, O Lord, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands.

2 Corinthians 13:5

Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?

 

Philippians 4:8

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

 

Psalm 139:14

 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

 

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