9/11

I keep seeing 9/11 everywhere. I woke up to 9:11 this morning. Pls pray for the world and people in danger. God speaks to me like this through numbers and has been for a few years now. God bless you all in Jesus’ Name.

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The Worth of The Cross

Lying in bed last night as I was thinking about how terrible this demonic torment has been for months, it came to me: Look at Apostle Paul! Look at all he went through for the sake of Jesus and The Cross! He ENDURED so much! What patience and perseverance this Brother had in The LORD! After so many pity parties and begging God to take this thing away…how much am I willing to go through for Jesus and for The Cross? How much does He matter to me? Am I going to serve Him through the dark times also as I have so boldly proclaimed many times before all this happened? It’s so much easier to boast about my dedication for Christ than for me to walk it out with Him in patience when things get so tough.

All my life I’ve been quick to give up when things don’t go my way easily and quickly. I haven’t had much patience in all my 32 years on this planet.


Check out what Apostle Paul went through for Jesus’ sake.

2 Corinthians 11:16-33 (KJV)

16 I say again, let no man think me a fool; if otherwise, yet as a fool receive me, that I may boast myself a little.

17 That which I speak, I speak it not after the Lord, but as it were foolishly, in this confidence of boasting.

18 Seeing that many glory after the flesh, I will glory also.

19 For ye suffer fools gladly, seeing ye yourselves are wise.

20 For ye suffer, if a man bring you into bondage, if a man devour you, if a man take of you, if a man exalt himself, if a man smite you on the face.

21 I speak as concerning reproach, as though we had been weak. Howbeit whereinsoever any is bold, (I speak foolishly,) I am bold also.

22 Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I.

23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.

24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.

25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;

26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;

27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.

28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.

29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?

30 If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities.

31 The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not.

32 In Damascus the governor under Aretas the king kept the city of the damascenes with a garrison, desirous to apprehend me:

33 And through a window in a basket was I let down by the wall, and escaped his hands.


Trusting in Him and submitting to Him. Surrendering to The LORD… This video really speaks to me right now.

One day at a time. I believe God is cleansing me and purging me of the world and my carnal desires for the things of this world, known or unknown. I have fasted and done many deliverance. The demons are coming out but at a slow pace. The sexual demons are still violating me anytime 24/7 and I’m still having nightmares and annoying physical torment, but you know what… This morning I actually thank Him for what He is doing in me. I am not fully submitted to God. I am not fully dead to self. I am not truly surrendered to Him. I plan on seeking surrender to Jesus now more than ever. One day at a time. I must get into prayer alone with my Father in the quiet. It’s so easy to get caught up in this world as we are living in the technological age with so many distractions. Impatience is hard to shed when everything comes so instantly in this period of humanity. I confess I am impatient and need to surrender to God.

James 1:2-4 (KJV)

My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;

Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.


So, God bless you all. I hope this helps someone. Glory to God! He revealed this to me last night before falling asleep. Praise His Holy Name! He has NEVER given up on me! He will NOT give up on YOU either!

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How Much More?….

*PG-13 Content*

“Waiting, for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
Still awaiting, I.”  -Disturbed

 

So, I’m still here…and I’m still going through it. After about a week of easier living, less torment in the sexual manner from the harassing demons (I believed they were losing their strength but turns out they were hiding somewhere else in me) they showed me they were back yesterday afternoon. I was in my prayer closet praying to The Lord when all of a sudden I noticed that my mouth was gaped open for no reason, then I realized I was being raped again by unseen forces…in the spirit. This is insane and I cannot believe I am still here.

I have heard of other Christians going through this right now and this is just terrible! The devil is sending out his wicked forces to attack some of God’s Children with sexual temptation and demonic arousal. Some call them spirit husbands or spirit wives. There’s Incubus and Succubus. Usually the latter two are said to attack in dreams and at night while I believe the spirit spouses attack any time 24/7. I’m not exactly sure how this perverted demon(s) became tied to me. At first I thought maybe it had to do something with my dad being a Freemason when he was alive.

*NOTE: DON’T sign up to be a FREEMASON, you are screwing your family over with curses, blood pacts or whatever else. Think about it! Not to mention you are WORSHIPING LUCIFER! AKA SATAN!


A new day…for so long I have been waking up and thinking to myself, Maybe today will be the day I will be set free… but not yet. I barely get any sleep anymore. Especially the past month. The demons (all of the kinds) attack most and heaviest at bedtime and like midnight through the dawn. They attack the most when human beings are tired and weary, sleepy and annoyed. So, for awhile I have been taking evening naps to be awake for the nighttime attacks and just odd hours. Not much sleep.

I was really picking up speed and felt a fresh anointing of boldness from The Lord in witnessing and beginning to get out of bed in the morning and exercise-seemingly signs of breakthrough. Temporarily. I’ve even been sharing praise reports. People, do NOT be deceived. The enemy is cunning and wants only to rob you, kill you, destroy you! I have read that these sex demons can cause serious gynecological problems. I believe I have been experiencing attacks of that sort as well. Not going into detail on that one.

This stuff is embarrassing, but it’s my hope that someone will find it all helpful and comforting, bringing God the Glory. He did not do this to me, I brought it upon myself when Jesus delivered me in January from a similar attack, much heavier in nature. I just bowed my head and prayed. When I lifted my head I was free. Well, I did not read the part in the Bible where Jesus  says to sin no more lest something worse would come over you:

John 5:14 (KJV)

“Afterward Jesus findeth him in the temple, and said unto him, Behold, thou art made whole: sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee.”

And I did. Then just as it is written, this happened to me. I am living every moment of my life awake and sleeping (dreams are now only nightmares) with the rapist demons tormenting and harassing me. Heavy attacks, because I did not know the Word and I sinned against God. The wages of sin truly is DEATH.

Romans 6:23 (KJV)

For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

This stuff does NOT want to LOOSE ME and LET ME GO! I am going to get some Brothers and Sisters to pray for me because I am having trouble fasting and I am pretty sure these demons qualify for the category where Jesus said:

Mark 9:29 (KJV)

And he said unto them, This kind can come forth by nothing, but by prayer and fasting.


On a good note, God has used this mess to reveal an amazing Truth to me. I grew up in a very religious church that didn’t teach the full Gospel. No casting out devils or healing and tongues. God has introduced me to Deliverance Ministry, I am astonished at the truth! I am really not “Bipolar.” Mental illness, physical illnesses like Bipolar or cancer etc are just symptoms of demons that can be cast out in Jesus Name! It is far more simple if you cancel the legal rights and close all open doors. Sometimes you encounter some super strong and stubborn ones like I am dealing with, but this is FREEDOM in JESUS’ NAME! He came to set the captives free! This is BIBLICAL! Research this for yourself if you don’t know, God does not want you to suffer!

Anyways, I will keep you posted.  If you would, please send up a prayer for me. Let us all remember no matter what…we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE! God has NOT forsaken YOU! JESUS LOVES YOU! PRAY PRAY PRAY.

Check out this awesome Deliverance Website Keys to The Kingdom HERE!

Made In The Image of GOD.

So I was just browsing Yahoo for a few minutes. As I scrolled down the page, I saw these 2 different articles:

“Ohio executes man after delays over lethal injection drugs”

and

“Killer of San Antonio woman set for execution Thursday”


These are 2 different stories and crimes with different groups of people involved and of course the 2 gentleman here, the first one already executed.

I have been praying for God to let me feel what He feels. I know I need my heart to be softened and that it has been hardened for a long time because of pain and sin and whatever else. No matter how wicked these crimes are and the pain the victims have suffered, these 2 men were created in the image of God. God loves them. God loved you at your worst right? In the midst of the nastiest most horrible and cruel thing you ever did, Father God was still loving you in that moment, and even now. You see, we can’t comprehend that with our carnal minds. We hear about crimes like this and we say things like “What a monster!”

Glory to God, He is really opening my eyes and I am learning a bit more in this dark period of my life more than ever. We live in a spiritual world where what is unseen goes ignored. This verse is from The Bible:

1 Samuel 16:7  (KJV)

But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.

 

We don’t think like The Creator of everything. Nor can we.

Genesis 18:25 (KJV)

That be far from thee to do after this manner, to slay the righteous with the wicked: and that the righteous should be as the wicked, that be far from thee: Shall not the Judge of all the earth do right?


These PEOPLE are NOT MONSTERS. The demons inside them are. That does not make what they did right. This is just the truth of the matter. It is 100% FACT that if you had the SAME demons operating inside of you, you too would be capable of committing the SAME horrendous acts. The world does not recognize this and in fact 90 something percent of churches do not recognize the reality of the spirit realm either.

I just had to vent because this really strikes a chord in my heart tonight. It hurts because behind these faces, behind these eyes and the demonic at work, are real people. SOULS. JUST LIKE YOU and me. I just ask us all to reconsider things when we look at other human beings whether in the news or at work or school or in the world. Let God be the judge. The world needs JESUS. If they don’t know the LOVE of JESUS, how can they know Him? You may be the only connection to Jesus someone ever has. Be sure and share His Love. God gave EVERYTHING when He gave JESUS for you, so you and I should really share that love with the world because this world is hurting like never before!

I pray this blesses you somehow. Jesus loves you, and the criminals on the news the same. I say all of this in love to us all. ♥  †  ♥

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The Remedy…

Most of this year I have been tormented by unclean spirits. Especially what is known as a familiar spirit or spirit husband, and Kundalini. Tonight I had a revelation. All of this time I have been spiritually sick for months now, but yet I have avoided my Great Physician. I have been broken down for so long and I have been waiting on my breakthrough for sometime now.

Tonight I realized that I need not focus on self-deliverance, deliverance sessions or deliverance prayers right now. I have dealt with all these and they have worked but I’ve been missing the mark. The TRUE answer to the ending of this torment and the beginning of my great healing is seeking The Face of my God alone in prayer. In all honesty, I have spent hours upon hours studying different types of demons and casting them out and so on but yet so very little time with Jesus. I have spent very little time in prayer. I have been what I call praying on the run 99% of the time instead of seeking Him in the prayer closet.

Papa has been waiting with open Arms from day one, but as always I have sought control in doing it all myself. I realize I have been doing it all in my own strength and walking in the flesh more than the Spirit. I long to have a stronger relationship with God and really be used by Him. My problem has always been that I have wanted to serve Him more than to KNOW HIM. Relationship is number 1!!! So, this morning I am going to my Father with empty hands and arms lifted. I surrender.

Jesus save me! I need Your Presence always! I want to learn more about You and learn who I am in Christ to replace the false identities the world has given me.

I love You LORD!

For The Weary Christian and Curious Sinners…He is Faithful.

Bible Verses About Gods Faithfulness

Deuteronomy 7:9 – Know therefore that the LORD thy God, he [is] God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations;

2 Timothy 2:13 – If we believe not, [yet] he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself.

2 Thessalonians 3:3 – But the Lord is faithful, who shall stablish you, and keep [you] from evil.

Jeremiah 29:11 – 29:13

11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. 13 And ye shall seek me, and find [me], when ye shall search for me with all your heart.

1 Corinthians 10:13 – There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God [is] faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear [it].

1 Corinthians 1:9 – God [is] faithful, by whom ye were called unto the fellowship of his Son Jesus Christ our Lord.

Psalms 33:4 – For the word of the LORD [is] right; and all his works [are done] in truth.

Psalms 86:15 – But thou, O Lord, [art] a God full of compassion, and gracious, longsuffering, and plenteous in mercy and truth.

1 John 1:9 – If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us [our] sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Psalms 23:1 – 23:6

1 (A Psalm of David.) The LORD [is] my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

 

John 16:33 – These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Lamentations 3:23 – [They are] new every morning: great [is] thy faithfulness.

Numbers 23:19 – God [is] not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do [it]? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?

Romans 3:3 – For what if some did not believe? shall their unbelief make the faith of God without effect?


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