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Multiple Personalities After Midnight…

Jesus has put so very many things on my heart, speaking to my spirit tonight, just what I’d call “Holy Spirit downloads” if you will.  I praise Him that I am more able to process them and handle more information now that Jesus got me off of the Lithium *led by professional medical supervision* for my good. There was a time in my life when God used Lithium to stabilize me before I was Holy Spirit filled because I was highly demonized and out of control, trying to jump out of moving cars, uprooting a yard full of newly planted flowers, cutting myself, writing Satanic things on the walls and doors of our home, etc… I admit I am still ashamed and not proud of what I have done in my body, but it’s not my body so much that He’s interested in. This flesh will surely pass away. It’s our spirit that lives on forever, whether sealed by The Holy Spirit of God or not. Heaven or Hell. It’s a choice we all make.

Godly sorrow overtook me tonight with a very heavy heart in my chest. My Lord revealed so many things to me. It’s not to condemn me or make me feel guilty but to convict me, build my character and conform me to the image of His Son.

Romans 8:29 (KJV)

For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.


The God of Abraham, Issac, and Jacob has truly brought me into a new chapter of the live He’s given me. We are entering into one of the most supernatural times in history. It is now common for me to see things happen in my home that are not of the reality I’ve known these past 32 years, but I see it’s real. Experiencing things changes everything ya know? That is when we are blessed with lessons we don’t have to write down but change our lives and thinking for life. For example, I believed deliverance ministry was not of God when I first heard of it. I grew up in a very religious church and it being all new to me and deviating from the norm was beyond difficult to digest. Have you ever noticed how we like to put things in a box? That’s happened to me lately. I am guilty of casting aside things, people and situations that do not fit inside what I consider my box to be. However, there’s more. Just like how the deliverance ministry God blessed to be a part of for months doesn’t teach inner healing along side it. I know it is the work of the Holy Spirit alone and we as Christians can be called into that sort of ministry as simple vessels for The Lord, but they just don’t deal with or acknowledge it. I was the only one vocal about such a thing that I am dealing with in my heart and broken soul and the wicked way it all came about for me. It’s not all demons. There are parts of us that need healing. Jesus came to set the captives free and bind up their wounds. I think that means my heart needs healing. He restoreth my soul in Psalms 23. The soul or heart of man (mind, will and emotions) can be fractured and broken into many pieces (this is where what the world calls multiple personality disorder comes in–and by the way, mental illness is demonic).

Check out Isaiah 61:1. That’s our King! He came for so much more than the most Precious Gift of Salvation which is most important for eternal life of course. Many churches aren’t teaching this so tons of hurting people have no idea what was made available for them to take care of these things. I praise God for leading me into all Truth by His Spirit.

Broken parts aren’t a license to sin, just like grace shouldn’t be either/taken for granted or advantage of. Education on the matter is power. God said His People perish for lack of knowledge and they really are…and will if we don’t do something as led by The Holy Spirit. It was God Almighty Who even put it in my heart to ask Him over a year ago if there was a spiritual connection to the Bipolar Disorder I’d been struggling with for over a decade. Sure enough…there is. It’s taken time, heartache, and painful lessons from The Lord to come to the revelations He shares. Praise Him for it though! God uses the result of our sins, the chastening of those He loves which are His Children (see Hebrews 12:6-7) to correct us and mold our character to become like Jesus! Therefore, no pain and suffering is wasted if you are a Believer and Child of God through Jesus alone. Check out Romans 8.

Man, I could go on and on. So many blessings of convictions, knowledge, wisdom and guidance in the prayer closet tonight. I wasn’t in there long, but He met me where I was in all my restlessness and despite my hard time being still, He worked with me and had mercy in that hour. Tonight’s lesson was about intercession, bearing the burdens of others and making their needs and wants my own etc… The commandments of Jesus!!!

Matthew 22:36-40 (KJV)

36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law?

37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.

38 This is the first and great commandment.

39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

 

I praise His Holy Name that The Lord Jesus opened my eyes to the fact that my broken soul wasn’t fully committed to Him and following His ways, not loving others as myself also. This is not a stumbling block, just something to ponder. We are all at different places in individual callings from The Almighty. If we seek Him, He will surely answer so be encouraged tonight 🙂

I love you guys and want you to feel better and be encouraged. Some days some of us are barely hanging on and the rest of us help carry that load, then the next day or not long after, we’re doing the same for them. It’s The Kingdom of God. We are Family. No matter where you are, if you have absolutely no friends or family at all, ask The Lord and He will lead you to like minded Believers! Christians are Family worldwide! Praise Jesus for all the Benefits of Almighty God! Psalm 103 is amazing too ♥

Sweet dreams, precious ones. You matter and your suffering is not in vain.

Should you not know this Precious Jesus that we speak of as The Son of God and the only way to Heaven in eternal life, He is waiting with open arms to hear you out and accept you as you are but not leave you there in the dark. Fall apart in the presence of God. He’s not there to put you down, but lift you up out of your mess. He meets us in the darkest of places and carries us into His marvelous Light! Praise His Holy Name!

Night for now 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

My First Ride in An Ambulance!

I went to bed early Friday night with a sinus infection. Breathing troubles and sore throats from sinus drainage are no fun as most of you know I’m sure. I tossed and turned with a few minutes sleep here or there. At 3 a.m. I opened my eyes and rose to go to the bathroom and just 3 short feet away from the bed the terrifying reality hit me that I could not breathe AT ALL! My windpipe was completely shut off in my throat. I got to the living room as quick as I could where my husband was awake still on the computer playing a game. He saw panic and the tears rolling down my face and when I showed him by motioning with my hands that I couldn’t breathe. He called 911 and they were there in minutes to put me on a stretcher, getting me into the ambulance for vitals and a breathing treatment.

From the moment I knew I was not going to be able to breathe on my own, I immediately began praying inside from the heart. No one could hear me, but my God and Lord Jesus Christ could. I repented for all of my sins known and unknown and I prayed for my family. I’ve never experienced anything like it. God was amazing and He brought Bible Verses to mind. In my head I repeated this favorite:

2 Timothy 1:12  (KJV)

12 For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.

Up until yesterday morning at 3 a.m. I’d never had a near death experience. It’s different for everyone I guess, I mean I wasn’t hanging on the edge of a cliff or doing flips on a motorcycle, but death was right there just the same ready to take me out. But you know what? My GOD was and is BIGGER. This incident has changed my life for the better. The ONE Who gives us the breath of life when we enter the womb is the same one who chooses when to take it. I am so glad that my hands are in The Hands of GOD, not only GOD, but my FATHER. Jesus Christ paid for me with His Precious BLOOD on The CROSS and now as a born again Christian, I am an heir and a co-heir with Christ. I am a Daughter of God, I belong to Him. Therefore, anything coming against me must first go through Him-it has to get past the Blood of JESUS. This is the protection of The Believer. God’s will shall be done, but there’s no rest or true safety outside the Shadow of The Almighty. The Amplified version puts it like this:

Psalm 91

He who [a]dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no foe can withstand].


Later on yesterday after getting home from the ER, sitting at my desk, The LORD brought back an old song from many years.

“Sick and Tired of this world
There’s no more air
Trippin’ over myself
Goin’ nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
And I took a dive
And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won’t forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you.”

“On The Way Down” by Ryan Cabrera
(Actually God held onto me!!! Thank YOU JESUS!)
God used this song from an earlier time of hardship in my life to remind me today of how much He has brought me through and how He’s The only Reason I’m still alive. I could have died this morning when my breathing was shut off inside, but He has other plans and His Mercy and Grace are so mind blowing! Jesus loves us so much. The world and the enemy send the message of condemnation, but if we take the time to read or hear The Bible, The WORD of God, we will see we are THE JOY that was set before Jesus going to the Cross!

Hebrews 12:2 (KJV)
Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

GOD loves us all so very much that He gave His only Begotten Son The Lord Jesus…(John 3:16)
JESUS LOVES YOU! †

To GOD be THE GLORY!

What am I doing for Jesus?

Being a follower of The Lord Jesus Christ, or a Christian, is not an easy life. If you truly pick up your Cross and follow Him, you must die to yourself and leave the things of this world behind. When someone is Born Again there should be fruit as the Bible calls it, or radical transformation. The desires of their hearts will change along with what they do with their lives.

Sometimes the flesh rises up and old thinking habits return for us. I know in my life I have always struggled with comparing myself to others and always coming up short. I didn’t know any better then and it cost me years of disappointments. This is because we are not the same. Every human being was created by The Lord God Almighty for His own unique calling on their lives. When we come to Christ and receive The Holy Spirit, we are given gifts of The Holy Spirit and our lives show that we have The Holy Spirit, that we are Christ’s. The Bible calls the changes fruits. This is because we are like trees. Jesus is the Vine and we are the branches. Apart from Jesus, or The Vine, we can do nothing. However, once we are Baptized with water and with Fire, as anointed vessels or Disciples, we go forth and live out the full Gospel. So many churches aren’t teaching the full Gospel, but this is so important. This is how we live as Jesus’ Disciples.

Mark 16:16-18 (KJV)

16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.

17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.


I know even today when my old thinking patterns rise up, I begin to compare myself to my Brothers and Sisters in The Lord. I look at how amazing their service is for Jesus. I watch how much they do for Jesus and the great impact it has upon the world. Then I think to myself of how I fall so short. This is when The Holy Spirit of God ministers to me, reminding me that we are all different in The Body of Christ. Jesus is The Head and we are The Body. Some of us are operating on the front lines dealing mores o with the Public street preaching, handing out tracts, making YouTube Videos etc… Some of God’s Children may be working more behind the scenes interceding for others, the world, and whatever The Lord puts on their hearts. So even though not everyone is working out in the public eye, every ministry and the gifts are equally important within each Christian. In my case, I have felt terrible because I have been dealing with a lot of demonic oppression and I am still being delivered so I can’t get out much.  I am not well spiritually right now. I stay up late to deal with attacks and all.  My heart is burning to reach out to people to heal the sick for example. I see so many people hurting on just trips to the grocery or in restaurants or whatever. I see braces, Diabetic shoes, crutches, wheelchairs, so much. I know I have the Power of The Holy Spirit within me to help them as a willing vessel, but now is just not the time in my life for this.

I am right where Jesus wants me. My prayers touch the heart of God and Jesus my High Priest. I see them answered and sometimes so quickly It’s amazing. The lives of people are changed and wonderful things happen. God is Awesome. He does not want you to feel insignificant and certainly not unworthy. It’s not our righteousness. It’s The Righteousness of Jesus that covers us and we are saved by Grace through Faith and in Him alone. Not by works. When we serve the Lord with our gifts and callings, we are bearing fruit. We love others because Jesus LOVED and LOVES us! He loves you! He wants us to share that love! The Holy Spirit inside of us rises up in joy with the Love of Christ and we just HAVE to give it away! So you see, it’s all fruit, not works. We do things out of love, they just blossom. We do things led by The Holy Spirit. When Jesus touches you, you will never, ever be the same. Your life becomes a FIRE that will spread and light up the lives of others. So come on…shine with me!  🙂

Consequences…

Parts of me are twitching, sore, burning among other things. I am talking about the effects of the demonic oppression on my body. Medical Science calls these things “symptoms.” The wages of sin is death. I am NOT posting this to give the enemy any glory, but for it to serve as a SERIOUS WARNING. If you’ve followed my blog for a while this year you can see that I have been dealing with serious demonic oppression, sexual in nature. These days porn is free, but not really. Your credit card may not be charged, but your body and sanity will be. Especially if you are a born again Christian, God will chasten you. Also, If you return to the sin(s) after your deliverance, they will come back…

John 5:14 (KJV)

Afterward Jesus findeth him in the temple, and said unto him, Behold, thou art made whole: sin no more, lest a worse thing come unto thee.


 

KNOW YOUR BIBLE! So many Christians don’t get into The Word these days! I did not know about this verse and I let my flesh lead me back into the same sins after JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF delivered me at my desk in my living room with a simple prayer. This is why I am in the position I am in right now. Constant torment in my female areas. Even after The Lord has blessed me with some major deliverance this past week. It takes time. This stuff doesn’t happen over night. I do have 32 years of acquired spiritual junk. However…

Through it all, He has been faithful. My God has blessed me beyond measure. He reached out to me using a Sister in Christ and led me into a deliverance ministry fellowship group. I hadn’t been going to Church regularly for a very long time so this was such a blessing and very much needed! He never left my side. Because I am saved, I was chastened and not cast away. My Father is now restoring me and our relationship. As these demons leave the voids are filled with The Holy Spirit.

Hebrews 12:6-11 (KJV)

For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.

If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?

But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.

Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live?

10 For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.

11 Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.


You hear the phrase “count the cost” sometimes. It’s in The Bible:

Luke 14:27-28 (KJV)

27 And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.

28 For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have sufficient to finish it?


SIN costs you EVERYTHING!!! Jesus is the only way out of Hell and messes like these. My attitude now is that I praise HIM that I am blessed to suffer in Jesus’ Name because it shows I am a daughter and not a servant. I am an heir and co-heir with Christ. More updates on my journey to come later. God bless!

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I’m Gonna Be Okay.

Hebrews 13:5 (KJV)

Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

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I Got Something to Say…

It’s like after 6 a.m. and I’m sitting here sippin on some Cappuccino. On the drive home from the gas station so many thoughts were running through my head. Many emotions too..I shed a few tears as I sang along to some Miranda Lambert and reminisced with some Taylor Swift on my Spotify app. Needless to say I took the long way home…

It’s not like me to revert back to my old ways and musical tastes like I did this morning, but after losing a major spiritual attack after waking up and feeling so defeated, I just didn’t care. I threw it all away. I didn’t know I would mess up today and so early, but God did. I got so much deliverance last night. I just knew that was it. I just knew that the molesting and raping demons were going down forever. I was so excited because the desire to masturbate from their stimulation would be gone completely forever! Not so…yet. Christians (and everybody else) do not engage in watching pornography not matter what. The cost is far too high-especially if you are a Christian, a Child of GOD seeking The Lord. There are demons that can attach themselves to your body and live inside of you. They can be so stubborn to get out as I am finding out. Doing this stuff is a WIDE OPEN DOOR FOR THE DARK SIDE! Not many want to talk about this but it needs to be addressed!

So today God has had mercy on me. Even after blowing it this morning, still yet I began burping and yawning and coughing. These are all manifestations of deliverance. God was delivering me and still kicking demons out despite my actions. I haven’t prayed since.

As I was listening to songs like I Knew You Were Trouble, Red, and Bad Blood, I thought about all of the rejection I experienced in romantic relationships growing up and in early adulthood. It didn’t matter how beautiful I was or how talented. I was always rejected by the men I so desired. Even in the relationships I was involved in, they never lasted too long. NOW it is SO clear to me WHY! Having received all of the revelation this year in my trials I see that we live in a spirit world and all is spiritual. I recognize the mishaps. Most people have heard that God has a plan for your life. Well, the truth is…Satan does too! The kingdom of darkness is always at work in your life as well carrying out assignments against you to suit their purposes and plans against God. Good news tho! That’s what spiritual warfare is for!

All of my romantic entanglements were a part of Satan’s plan against my life to destroy what God had for me/God’s purpose for my life. I believe the enemy can catch a glimpse of the future but only God knows everything. Satan can speculate, I mean, after all he’s been around for a very long time! Whatever happened, I know the enemy was at work. Maybe not in everything. We have been given free will, just know that the kingdom of darkness has plans for your life too. I tell you this in wisdom, not to scare you. I tell you this from experience. There were major assignments against me in my young life with the spirits of rejection, self-hatred, fear, and so much more.

So if you’re going through something like this (you can apply this to everything else too), just know that it’s nothing personal. Remember that these spirits operate in people to get to us…and we war not against flesh and blood. Man, what an awakening this year has been for me!

Seek The Lord in prayer and ask for wisdom. God bless!

Me On The Altar.

God has given me the answer to my spiritual problem this year multiple times using different people and things. Instead of heeding any of His opportunities, each time I pushed them away and tried to do it my way or another way. The way He has for me I have always put aside because it was too hard and extreme for me. It’s like I want to know God so intimately but I want my desires too. I have cried out for The Lord to draw me into The very Heart of Him in recent years and He is doing that right now. I am going down whining, kicking, and screaming. As nasty as this spirit husband harassment has been you would think I would have already fasted and kicked this thing. But it’s not about this spirit husband. This is actually about God. This is about me no longer running from Him. I can’t have it both ways. Not anymore. I want to know God. I want to seek Him with all my heart and find Him. I want to break through in our relationship to a new level of fellowship with The Holy One.

This is me dying. This is the end of me. This is me putting my flesh (the lust of the flesh) on The Altar. This is painful. This is not what I want to do. I am beginning a fast at noon in a couple minutes and I have avoided this for months. I don’t want to be molested anymore and raped by unseen forces, aka the spirit husband. God is delivering me and giving me grace and everything I need for this, including the support of some amazing friends that are Family in Christ!

Today, I finally got it. It finally registered. This is how it’s going down. This fast is me surrendering to Jesus and letting Him take my walls down. I want to give Him all of me and hold nothing back. I have been shown so much information these past few months about the spirit realm and the demonic forces, the fact that everything has a spiritual root cause, and so much more. The Lord has revealed so much to me, including some big things about myself. I thought I knew it all already because of what He had shown me in leading me to Bible prophecy, but I was wrong. We will never learn it all, and pride is one of the things He has been taking down inside of me. Praise God!

Receiving the revelation this morning that I needed to fast as part of surrendering to God and dying to myself, really makes a difference. It doesn’t make it any easier in my flesh, but it helps me inside. I have to decide what matters most: God or food. God or my flesh. God or pleasure. God or me.

I’m learning this is about my will.


Check this out (from biblehub.com)

The Sin of Self-Will by R. Tuck
Psalm 81:11
But my people would not listen to my voice; and Israel would none of me.

Observe that the sin of which complaint is here made is not that Israel did not hearken, but that Israel would not hearken. God goes in behind the acts of disobedience, and is concerned with the spirit of wilfulness which found expression in the acts. The judgment of God upon them brings to view the special feature of their sin. “So I gave them up to the obduracy of their heart, that they should walk in their own counsels” (ver. 12).

I. SELF-WILL AS THE SIN INTO WHICH MEN FELL. Self-will is the perverted use of free will. Free will could be self-will if man were an independent creature. Free will must not be self-will, because man is a dependent creature. Free will became self-will, because man allowed himself to be guided by what seemed “pleasant to the eyes and good for food,” rather than by what he knew to be the will of him on whom he depended. Serving himself is the essence of sin for one who has been made dependent – in every way dependent upon God. What we have to counteract is the delusion that man is an independent being, and therefore may “follow the devices and desires of his own heart.” Illustrate from Daniel 5:28.

II. SELF-WILL AS THE SIN FROM WHICH MEN ARE DELIVERED. There are penalties into which men have brought themselves by their self will, and from these they need to be delivered. But it would be no effective redemption that dealt only with penalties. Deliverance from self-willedness, in a dependent creature, can only be effected by making him on whom he depends so infinitely attractive that he wins full trust and obedience. And this is accomplished by God’s manifestation of himself to men in the Person, life, and sacrifice of the Lord Jesus Christ.

III. SELF-WILL AS THE SIN INTO WHICH THE REDEEMED ARE IN DANGER OF FALLING BACK. Illustrate from the Israelites, as redeemed unto the service of Jehovah, from Egypt. Bring out

(1) the open ways, and

(2) the subtle ways, in which nowadays Christians may be tempted to the self-trust which breaks them away from their dependence on God. – R.T.


I watched a preacher online talking about dying to self yesterday. Today when I caught myself switching into the flesh during a conversation about something I am very opinionated about, I remembered what he said. This is the part of me that is yet to die. I don’t remember the exact words but I am so glad it came to mind again, praise God!

Don’t give up everyone. Jesus loves you! Father God is drawing His Church to a deeper relationship with Him I think. You are loved beyond measure by The One who died for you to be reconciled with Him for eternity!!! We cannot fathom how much we really mean to our Father and our Jesus! Praise Him today! No matter how dark it is or what you’re going through today!

*Final note: I just want to remind everyone not to be freaking out over demons and giving the kingdom of darkness any kind of glory. The battle is in the mind. I have been letting them get to me myself. Seriously, they are playing head games with you. No matter what you feel or see, God is greater! He NEVER leaves you! He is still there whenever you are under demonic attack! HE WILL MAKE A WAY for your deliverance!

Burn Me Alive Inside…

This “spirit husband” is so stubborn to let me go. If I’m not awake being raped and molested inside, then I am living in the devil’s nightmares as I sleep. So, I can’t just take a bunch of sleeping medicine cuz that would just screw me over, I’d end up stuck in the demonic nightmares for hours.

I guess I’ve sinned worse than I know… with what’s got hold of me. The way things are, you’d think I’d had sex with the devil himself. I just want them to leave. Or I want to leave if they won’t. Ah, this sucks! Days of torment.

The wages of sin is death. Don’t do it. If you are delivered from an unclean spirit (Jesus Himself delivered me from a terrible spirit after I prayed months ago) and you return to your sin, like The Bible says, something worse will come. Sin no more. I have been living with my something worse since March and I am seriously ready to move on.

There’s more to the world than what the cotton-candy Christianity preachers around the world are teaching right now. They’re tickling peoples ears with promises that if they just sign up they will win an all expenses paid trip to Heaven, no pain or suffering involved. New car, new house, better looking body and blah blah. It’s about who YOU are and what YOU want and what God will do for YOU. Hate to break it to all of the followers of the prosperity Gospel preachers, but…God is not a genie. We don’t just order what we want like at a drive thru either. It’s a relationship. This world is a mess right now with stuff like this going on. Stuff like what’s going on inside of me and is going on with many believers right now. I thank God for connecting me with people who I can relate to in this time of darkness. It is super dark in the spiritual realm down here on planet earth. It’s only going to get darker. The Bible is without error and all is coming to pass right now.

Jesus is the only way to make it right now and certainly to make it to Heaven. He is coming soon. Hold on people, it may feel like hell to us right now but we are way wrong. This is not hell. If we are suffering like this now, I cannot imagine how people will be attacked in the coming 7 year Tribulation, and unimaginably Hell itself. Repent! We aren’t guaranteed anymore time anyway of life. God bless.

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Deliverance Progress Report 6.10.2017

Hey everyone!

Hope all is well with you all today. This is just a journal post. Catching up.

First of all, glory to God Almighty and thank You LORD JESUS, for bringing amazing new people into my life! I had been walking alone in the wilderness this entire year but a couple weeks ago The Lord brought some wonderful men and women of God who are on FIRE for Jesus into my world! New friendships are developing. I am blessed beyond measure! Praise God!

It all began a few days before my birthday when The Lord led a Sister in Christ to reach out to me after I had posted a prayer request in a Facebook prayer group about needing help. My words were something like this, “Sister needs prayer. Satan has me in a choke-hold, only Jesus can save me.” So, I would up in a chatroom group about deliverance. I had no idea what would happen. I assumed they were going to pray for me if I showed up. I had it in my mind that I was not going to go.

After the weekend was over on that Monday, thirty minutes before the meeting began, The Holy Spirit quickened in me and I remembered it was time for the group. I got there and it was amazing, I was not the only one receiving deliverance that night. I was on webcam and the Brethren/deliverance team called out multiple spirits and went to war for me to be freed. It wasn’t until a Brother led me to ask The Holy Spirit to break my heart that I had a breakthrough.  A few seconds later I began weeping uncontrollably as The Spirit of God touched me.

Image result for chains broken off hands Jesus set me free

I’m a work in progress. I am learning that deliverance is a process, not a one time deal. There is more to come. I am still dealing with a strongman or heavy demon that is very stubborn and will not leave. It is very frustrating because this spirit attacks my body anytime day and night. I’m thinking this is one like Jesus says that only comes out by prayer and fasting as in Matthew 17:21.

I have learned that when demons are cast out they come out in the forms of yawning, burping, coughing up or spitting, maybe some other ways. I have experienced all of these. I had no idea the roots of the problems in my life were spiritual!

By the way, I am NO LONGER BIPOLAR! That’s a spirit!  I am still taking medications right now. Do not ever go off your meds without consulting your doctor and as led by The Lord because your flesh will react as it is used to having them. There are spirits attached to almost everything! Mental illnesses, pain, epilepsy, trauma, all else. You CAN BE FREE!

Christians can have demons. I tried to explain that to a Brother in Christ that I haven’t talked with in months and he didn’t agree or get it at first. I didn’t either before. I did NOT believe in deliverance ministry.  UNTIL IT HAPPENED TO ME… I just thought that only people in the world who did very wicked things could be possessed by demons. Truth is, we as Christians can have demons as well. In our members. Our spirit is saved by God and though The Holy Spirit of God dwells within us, our flesh and our minds/will and emotions are not saved like the part of us that lives on.

Learn more about Christians having demons HERE at greatbiblestudy.com

More Resources:

Check out The Book Pigs in The Parlor by Frank and Ida Mae Hammond. Get it on  AMAZON or check your local Christian bookstore.

Hardcore Christianity

Demon Buster is awesome with many, many prayers and spiritual warfare help. Adjust your speakers if need be because music will play when you go to the site.

God is teaching me to trust Him. I believe that is the major point of this trial if not one of the most major. But we cannot figure Him out. Then there’s the getting rid of my pride. I did not realize that my heart had hardened over time and there’s so much pain beneath that I have been ignoring and healing is needed. The MAIN REASON I am going through this is because of the open door I created with sin. There are consequences to sin. As a Child of God, I am being chastened. However, in the process, I am learning more and more about casting out demons, deliverance and spiritual warfare, and that the WHOLE BIBLE IS REAL TODAY!  The churches are teaching that all of these are no longer for today’s world, but I have witnessed them. This is real! Jesus spoke the TRUTH and this is TRUTH for TODAY’S WORLD also!!!

Mark 16:17-18  (KJV)

17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.


I want to be a part of this Christianity that you can experience! Miracles, signs, and wonders. Showing the world the truth and that JESUS is real! The BIBLE is real! Cover to Cover!!! I encourage you to check this out for yourselves. Important note: DO NOT CAST DEMONS OUT OF SOMEONE WHO IS NOT BORN AGAIN! It will do them harm.  They must be born again.

I’m taking this thing one step at a time. If you have found yourself in a similar situation and would like more information, just message me at the “Drop me a line” tab at the top of my blog. God bless!