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My Favorite Song Ever…

Growing up, when I first heard this song in the eighth grade, in 1998 it spoke to my SOUL…in such a great way. Praise The LORD God ALMIGHTY! God knew why that song meant so much to me then.

Now, thanks to the moving of The Holy Spirit and His revealing of things, I understand why this song always resonated with me so well. More to come on that in the future as The Lord leads…Lord willing. I pray this blesses you..and the little girl in some of us..Amen.

Close My Eyes
By   Mariah Carey

I was wayward child
With the weight of the world
That I held deep inside
Life was a winding road
And I learned many things
Little ones shouldn’t know

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though time’s rolled by
Still feel like that child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon

Funny how one can learn
To grow numb to the madness
And block it away
I left the worst unsaid
Let it all dissipate
And I try to forget

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though time’s rolled by
Still feel like that child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon

Nearing the edge
Oblivious I almost
Fell right over
A part of me
Will never be quite able
To feel stable
That woman-child falling inside
Was on the verge of fading
Thankfully I
Woke up in time

Guardian angel I
Sail away on an ocean
With you by my side
Orange clouds roll by
They burn into your image
And you’re still alive

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raise my head to the sky
And though time rolls by
Still feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon

No Matter Who You Are!

The depth of God’s Love and Mercy is too much to keep to myself. My heart is overwhelmed at how The Creator and God of all could forgive me, even me..how He pursues me!!! When we are faithless He abides faithful because He cannot deny Himself! How can it be! Praise God it is so! The Creator of This Universe and all LOVES YOU!!! The one reading this! He wants a relationship with you which can and will come only through His Son, The Lord Jesus Christ. The Sacred Blood that was shed 2,000 years ago still atones today. Come ye, all who thirst! There’s room at His table, no matter who you are or what the world considers you to be.You are loved in such a way you can never imagine. I love you too. Be blessed in Jesus Name.

HIS Grace IS ENOUGH! xoxo

If I never lived another day, I am one of the most blessed people on earth because I have received the revelation of The LOVE of GOD in Christ Jesus our Savior on The CROSS! There is NO CONDEMNATION! He will meet you where you are! Bring it all to the table! There’s nothing He ain’t seen before! Oh, how He loves us! THE LOVE OF GOD just wrecks me inside, I am a new Creation by The Grace of God! Once The HOLY SPIRIT moves in your heart, you HAVE to give JESUS away! PRAISES TO THE KING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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God sees your tears and He loves you

These 7 minutes could change your life forever.

Jesus TRULY loves you! Don’t Believe, watch this ♥

Jesus TRULY loves you! Don’t Believe, watch this ♥

NO MATTER WHAT! IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO FIND REST AND SALVATION FOR YOUR SOULS IN CHRIST FOR JESUS LOVES YOU BEYOND MEASURE! YOU ARE PRECIOUS IN THE SIGHT OF GOD AND OF HIS SON JESUS, THE SAVIOR OF MANKIND. YOU MATTER! You don’t have to suffer alone anymore nor believe the lies of the devil who tells you that you are worthless, alone, no good, ugly, stupid, nobody loves you, and all else that’s negative. There’s HOPE right HERE right NOW for you, if you just CRY OUT TO JESUS! He tasted death for everyone! Your sins will be forgiven, you will receive eternal life and the best friend you could ever have who sticks closer than a brother.

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This message will save your life. It’s up to you what you do with it.

Psalm 34:18   King James Version (KJV)

18 The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

Don’t Pass This Up!

Hebrews 3:12-19  (KJV)

12 Take heed, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief, in departing from the living God.

13 But exhort one another daily, while it is called To day; lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin.

14 For we are made partakers of Christ, if we hold the beginning of our confidence stedfast unto the end;

15 While it is said, To day if ye will hear his voice, harden not your hearts, as in the provocation.

16 For some, when they had heard, did provoke: howbeit not all that came out of Egypt by Moses.

17 But with whom was he grieved forty years? was it not with them that had sinned, whose carcases fell in the wilderness?

18 And to whom sware he that they should not enter into his rest, but to them that believed not?

19 So we see that they could not enter in because of unbelief.

What Love Feels Like

He’s my Answer.  He’s the bear-hug I need after a horrible letdown. Though I can’t feel Him against my skin, I feel Him deep inside my soul. It’s a closeness that can’t be described-instead it must be felt first hand.

His love is unending and truly unconditional. He will never leave me or betray me. I am 100% guaranteed that He has my back 24/7 and I can call Him anytime of day or night without disturbing Him. In fact, He delights in hearing from me. He is jealous for me. He loves when I take time out of my day to spend even a few minutes with Him.

Nobody else in this world could ever understand me the way He does. He always knows exactly what I’m thinking and why I do the things I do. Even when I break His heart or fail Him, He loves me still. He is ever forgiving. I can’t count the times I’ve come back running into His arms.

He adores me. He would give His life for me.

In fact…He already did.

I am free from addiction, no longer a slave to it. I am no longer the rejected. My life has purpose and I have a true reason to live. Oh, at what a little faith can do… Only by His Blood was I set free…It all died with Him.

What if you cry out His Name?

I promise He will meet you right where you are.

 If life is too much and you can’t go on…Call upon the name of JESUS tonight in prayer! This is more than a single prayer. This is the beginning of a new walk and way of life. A walk with Jesus as your life’s focal point. You will find peace and healing, hope and forgiveness.
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Then get into a Bible based Church and be water baptized as was Jesus for our example in the Gospel of Matthew.
Jesus is about to come back for His Church any moment now! Repent now! The 7 year Tribulation is about to happen after Jesus comes for His True Church, His Bride. This is why everything is going haywire on the global front with terrorism etc! Good is being called evil and evil is called good.
If you need to talk, I am here for you any time. Message me. God bless you.

 

 

A sharp sting and dull ache at the same time.

Earlier today, while looking through the guest bedroom, I happened to glance up at an old, framed family photo. A thousand memories flooded my mind. The contrast between everything I know today…and who and where we were back then…is just jaw-dropping. Oh, how everything has changed. I’ve heard that my whole life, but this morning it really sunk in.

Of course, people change throughout their lives, one stage to the next. A sharp sting and a dull ache at the same time. The troubles we knew then were nothing compared to the ones to come. Gazing at myself in the picture, my tiny 16 year old body…frail inside and out, I recalled all I was dealing with at the time in high school. Rejection. Bulimia. Becoming a Christian. The successes in extracurricular activities. My broken heart. Comparison, comparison. I can’t imagine what it’s like to be a teenager attending public school in today’s world…

Now, here I sit a strong woman of God. I’m no different than any other Christian, just trying to live the rest of my days faithful to Jesus, to God. My heart goes out to that confused and broken girl. In the end it was all in my head. Yes, I had some real issues to be tended to, but so much deception by the enemy himself as I chose Jesus. I didn’t know about spiritual warfare. At least not how real it really is.

Choosing Jesus is the best thing you could ever do. People won’t always understand why you’ve changed…how you changed. Your lifestyle, goals, worldview. Following Jesus means walking the straight & narrow road, traveled by few. Sometimes you feel alone, especially if you have no support at home. But you see, in this wilderness...you are transformed. In what seems to be the darkness, something beautiful happens. You find out who you are. That you were made for more. You are a Child of God.

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Soul Carrier

My body was never good enough as a teenager and into my early twenties. I had this poster of Britney Spears I held as my high standard. As close as I got…even being able to buy a single digit size 2 piece, It did NOT look like the poster! I absolutely did NOT look right. I shed so many pounds! I even did some toning and kickboxing and still no.

The fact is, not everybody’s body is gonna look like the 18 year old Britney Spears centerfold that I kept as a measuring tool!

I would NEVER accept the reality that only a small percentage of women have the physical makeup capable of pulling off a bikini look like hers.  But now, looking back as a 30 year old woman, I feel like a caged bird set free!!!

I found Recovery from my eating disorder at 22, but it was when I finally considered myself as my own unique type of beauty that things began to change. My stubborn self-criticizing mind fought it so hard. I resisted this new way of thinking to the max and then some.

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Through years of Bulimia, depression, therapy, Bipolar hospitalizations, eating disorder outpatient groups, and constant comparing myself to other women (famous and non-famous) I have learned that I am enough. I am okay. You see, for me it was all about rejection. The lies of the Devil himself led me to constant negative thought patterns, 24/7. I hated my life, my body…i hated myself. I was going against myself. My own worst enemy.*

*Note: I was NOT my own worst enemy. Satan, the devil himself was…and is now for everyone.

One day I had an awakening. This body of mine that I hated, the very cause of my unhappiness,  that I even self harmed over the years, was more than my body.

This is my Soul Carrier!

My flesh that I walk in and live in every day of my life contains something so delicate, so precious, so much more…

My Soul! My TRUE Being is operating from inside my now plus-sized, unique body. Becoming a Christian makes this the Temple of God. I am not my own. I was bought at a price. Though I didn’t believe that for years, the freedom I have NOW within the knowledge that I was believing lies…is priceless. Yes, ultimately it is

Jesus = freedom. You know in the Bible there’s a verse for this feeling.

“And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:7

It is possible to absolutely hate yourself, what you look like & think your life is over…and still overcome it all to find peace that is out of this world. I’m here to tell you it can be done, no matter what the circumstances. Everybody has their own personal story and journey. All of the clothes I bought in debt, gym memberships, and all other attempts to perfect this look i had in my head, totally don’t have to have ’em! I am beautiful, fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of God Himself, just as you are! Shopping sprees, binging on sweets and stuff only puts a Band-Aid on the pain. There is relief. Peace, out of this world.