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My Favorite Song Ever…

Growing up, when I first heard this song in the eighth grade, in 1998 it spoke to my SOUL…in such a great way. Praise The LORD God ALMIGHTY! God knew why that song meant so much to me then.

Now, thanks to the moving of The Holy Spirit and His revealing of things, I understand why this song always resonated with me so well. More to come on that in the future as The Lord leads…Lord willing. I pray this blesses you..and the little girl in some of us..Amen.

Close My Eyes
By   Mariah Carey

I was wayward child
With the weight of the world
That I held deep inside
Life was a winding road
And I learned many things
Little ones shouldn’t know

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though time’s rolled by
Still feel like that child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon

Funny how one can learn
To grow numb to the madness
And block it away
I left the worst unsaid
Let it all dissipate
And I try to forget

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And though time’s rolled by
Still feel like that child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon

Nearing the edge
Oblivious I almost
Fell right over
A part of me
Will never be quite able
To feel stable
That woman-child falling inside
Was on the verge of fading
Thankfully I
Woke up in time

Guardian angel I
Sail away on an ocean
With you by my side
Orange clouds roll by
They burn into your image
And you’re still alive

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raise my head to the sky
And though time rolls by
Still feel like a child
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up
A little too soon

Jesus TRULY loves you! Don’t Believe, watch this ♥

Jesus TRULY loves you! Don’t Believe, watch this ♥

NO MATTER WHAT! IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO FIND REST AND SALVATION FOR YOUR SOULS IN CHRIST FOR JESUS LOVES YOU BEYOND MEASURE! YOU ARE PRECIOUS IN THE SIGHT OF GOD AND OF HIS SON JESUS, THE SAVIOR OF MANKIND. YOU MATTER! You don’t have to suffer alone anymore nor believe the lies of the devil who tells you that you are worthless, alone, no good, ugly, stupid, nobody loves you, and all else that’s negative. There’s HOPE right HERE right NOW for you, if you just CRY OUT TO JESUS! He tasted death for everyone! Your sins will be forgiven, you will receive eternal life and the best friend you could ever have who sticks closer than a brother.


Can’t Get Out of Bed?

If all you got left is a whisper, praise HIM, for HE is worthy!

Ask JESUS for the will and ability to get out of bed today. Maybe you want to go back to bed when you finish your cereal after reading this. Believe me, I understand that. Maybe you have grown to hate the sunlight and just can’t face the days anymore. You don’t have it in you to go to the mailbox much less the gym…

But there is hope! JESUS CHRIST is The Answer! He is The Way, The Truth and The Life! No one comes to The Father but by Him. Why don’t you surrender this day, let it all out in a prayer. Maybe you can’t leave your house, but you can cry out to Jesus. He will never ever fail you. You will NEVER be alone ever again because The Holy Spirit of God will come to dwell inside of you and He will quicken you to a new Life in Christ.

It won’t be easy, but it’s beyond worth it and it is the best decision you could ever make. Jesus said in   Matthew 11:28-30,  

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

The benefits of Christ are INFINITELY BEYOND THIS LIFE. The point of it all is truly the salvation of your soul! Don’t put it off another day. You don’t have to hurt alone anymore in this life. Jesus changes everything. And If your circumstances don’t change, you will have Someone AMAZING to help bear your burdens. There is life in Christ. Without Jesus you are dead. Your worst day as a Christian is incomparable to your best day as a lost sinner in a dark and dying world. Find ETERNAL LIFE and rest for your souls in Jesus alone, Beloved. God bless you dearly. Take it from someone whose been there.  ♥

Suffering With GOD


JESUS is with you in the trials, on the darkest nights, and those mornings when you can’t stand to face the sunlight. There is hope for you, no matter what anybody says: your doctor, your parents, your kids, your family, friends or co-workers, people on the street and so on. GOD is The Great Physician, God knows your weaknesses and has the FINAL SAY!

Human beings make tons of mistakes every day and NONE of them are 100% reliable. We can only TRULY trust JESUS CHRIST, OUR LORD AND THE SON OF GOD! Also, the enemy Satan and his army of demons, use other people and things to hurt us. Don’t take it personally when people slander you, use and abuse you, or insult you. The devil knows exactly where to shoot those fiery darts to try and attack your faith and trust in THE LORD! That’s why The Bible says in Ephesians 6 that we must use our shield of faith to quench those fiery darts of Satan when they come at us!

How does one strengthen their faith? Faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the Word of God, so read your Bible, seek The Face of God in prayer time, pray throughout the day to your God in The Name of Jesus Christ. After all God is our best friend and prayer is a conversation with our Maker! Worship Him in Spirit and in Truth! When you are filled with the Holy Spirit you don’t have to have a feel good beat to praise God Almighty because it truly comes from deep inside by The Spirit of God! You can feel His presence, just know He’s there and He loves to hear from His Child! Don’t forget fellowship with other believers at Church, Bible-studies, online, etc. We keep the fire going in our coming together!

Finally, like the poster says, our faith is made stronger in times of testing and trials. There are many things we go through in this life that make absolutely no sense or hurt with pain that seems unbearable. Just remember, when you’re at the end of your rope, that’s the perfect place to lean on your GOD and let Him lead you! He will PULL YOU OUT OF THE PIT. We just have to lean on Him and ask for His Grace and strength. Our God will fight for us. When we are weak He is strong! Though it may hurt for a while, our trust in The Lord is built and our faith strengthened while all along our relationship with Him grows ever so beautifully. We rely on our God and Maker, our Lord Jesus to get through these tough times. We are led by The Sweet Holy Spirit of GOD.

It’s gonna be okay. If you’re walking with Jesus, I promise. Be blessed in JESUS NAME!

If you do not know The Lord God, seek HIM NOW in JESUS alone ♥  †  ♥



This message will save your life. It’s up to you what you do with it.

Psalm 34:18   King James Version (KJV)

18 The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

What Love Feels Like

He’s my Answer.  He’s the bear-hug I need after a horrible letdown. Though I can’t feel Him against my skin, I feel Him deep inside my soul. It’s a closeness that can’t be described-instead it must be felt first hand.

His love is unending and truly unconditional. He will never leave me or betray me. I am 100% guaranteed that He has my back 24/7 and I can call Him anytime of day or night without disturbing Him. In fact, He delights in hearing from me. He is jealous for me. He loves when I take time out of my day to spend even a few minutes with Him.

Nobody else in this world could ever understand me the way He does. He always knows exactly what I’m thinking and why I do the things I do. Even when I break His heart or fail Him, He loves me still. He is ever forgiving. I can’t count the times I’ve come back running into His arms.

He adores me. He would give His life for me.

In fact…He already did.

I am free from addiction, no longer a slave to it. I am no longer the rejected. My life has purpose and I have a true reason to live. Oh, at what a little faith can do… Only by His Blood was I set free…It all died with Him.

What if you cry out His Name?

I promise He will meet you right where you are.

 If life is too much and you can’t go on…Call upon the name of JESUS tonight in prayer! This is more than a single prayer. This is the beginning of a new walk and way of life. A walk with Jesus as your life’s focal point. You will find peace and healing, hope and forgiveness.
Then get into a Bible based Church and be water baptized as was Jesus for our example in the Gospel of Matthew.
Jesus is about to come back for His Church any moment now! Repent now! The 7 year Tribulation is about to happen after Jesus comes for His True Church, His Bride. This is why everything is going haywire on the global front with terrorism etc! Good is being called evil and evil is called good.
If you need to talk, I am here for you any time. Message me. God bless you.



“I wanted you t…

“I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh…
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away” -Seether

Jesus, Here’s The Rest…


ImageI just wrote this poem in reflection of the pain I am in with some sort of depression, my spiritual neglect, the state of my soul, all my worries of this world, and my progress on making it to the next someday… . I am too weak to pray… My spirit is weary, I feel that my prayers aren’t worthy for God’s ears. I am not an unbeliever. I am a Christian of now 15 years. Oh at the hurt and confusion that comes along with a mood disorder, and fear of going to Church because of feeling inadequate, afraid of the social aspect…maybe it is irrational. God bless everyone today! I hope everyone has a great day 🙂


“Jesus, Here’s The Rest…”


Father, I know I’ve let you down…

Its by the chains of my mind, I am bound.


Locked up inside the confines of the flesh,

My faith is dwindling, in these dark moments I confess.


Sometimes I wonder if my cries you even hear?

Lord, there’s so much sadness in every tear…


In this moment, I am too weak to utter a word in prayer…

Please don’t give up on me, in my broken heart, I know you’re still there.


This poem is for you, my King; tears are rolling down my cheeks.

I know that Jesus died for me, nails through His Hands and Feet.


This spiritual warfare inside is ripping me apart!

God, please intervene, please mend this broken heart…


Through the Lamb of God, I come to you this afternoon…with what I have left.

Sins cast east to west, Dear Jesus, in my brokenness, I hand you the rest.


Hold me, my Savior…



By:Amanda Mitchem


*Image courtesy, Google Images.

Valentine’s Day Now & Then.

Image Remember these? I loved them as a kid! I remember sharing these with my friends as a child. I know they’re still around and thriving this year again, but I haven’t had any of this kind of candy in years! Its a cute idea though, eh? Using candies to send special messages to special people. Pretty cool! I think I’m going to get my hubby some this year, so I can send him a few messages. LOL.

Love is in the air, dear friends! Can you smell it yet? Or is her perfume too strong? Symbols and icons of love are everywhere right now! There are hearts, baby cupids with little butts, roses, his & hers stuff galore; it is completely unavoidable if you venture out into society! Going into the local Wal-Mart where I do most of my household grocery and “stuff” shopping, there is an entire aisle dedicated to Valentine’s Day in the midst of the grocery side of the store. There are boxes of chocolates in different themes, colors, shapes and sizes, cookies, cakes, candy flowers, candy this and that, gift baskets for that special person in your life, everything!

Directly across the border and on into the household items section is an aisle completely set up with various Valentine gifts for your lover, friend or special someone! There are millions of cards, normal Valentine’s cards, and ones for kids, that we always exchanged at school. There are GIANT teddy bears (and other stuffed animals), silky boxers, satin sheets, fake flowers, as well as real ones, “love coupons” (my favorite! lol), and anything else that’s not beyond PG-13 for the store. You will find it all there! Hmm… I wonder how many babies are born in November???

I found an interesting article of facts and stats concerning Valentine’s Day overall.

You can check it out at: http://www.sheknows.com/holidays-and-seasons/articles/807655/fun-facts-about-valentine-s-day

vday2For every girl with a broken heart, there’s a boy with a glue gun.” (source on image). WOW! I wish I knew that back then! Valentine’s Day in high school was horrendous to my broken-self. It was such a popularity contest. I don’t know if the way it was at my school is the way it was everywhere else or what, but this holiday was a playing field, and you were only cool if you got something sent to the central school office for you to pick up at the end of the day before school was over. Why couldn’t the giver of your gift just give you the present after school since you didn’t get it until so late anyway??? Well, friends, the point was for everyone in the entire building to hear YOUR NAME called via intercom as the school secretary read the long list of girls and boys that had gotten something special for Valentine’s left at the office for pickup after dismissal! Rude and crude, right?

My name was on that list once or twice. Those 2 times were when my big sister who was in college at the time, and then my mother sent me an anonymous gift. They told me they’d send me something to make me feel better. It didn’t do the trick. I never got anything from a guy on V-Day in high school. That’s probably because I never had a boyfriend around that time. My longest relationship with a young man in my teen years lasted for a near 2 months. I thought it was going to be forever because of all the dumb ass stories we tell our children in Disney movies and all that crap. Sorry for launching the a-word, but in this case, its just necessary! If you read the entire blog on my eating disorder you already know that it did not work out. That is most definitely NOT who I married! LOL! After him, I just had a few flings or dates or whatever. Never serious again until college.

What’s my point?

Love isn’t what its like in the movies, Disney movies, or any of that. Love is real. Love is different for everybody. We are all traveling our own unique journeys that lead us over the river and through the woods, down winding paths so we finally wind up where we are supposed to at the right place and the right time, ultimately meeting up with Mr. or Mrs. Right! I would not be where I am now, married to the man that accentuates the better parts of me, had I not made some expensive mistakes, gotten burned, and been transformed by it all.

If I just met Jerry, having had him walk right into my life, hopped on his white horse, we wed and moved into a castle in the distance, that just would have been too easy. We both had things to do in our life. God had individual plans for us, which later, ultimately led us to our united path, we share together today. The way I see it, we needed to grow in our personal journeys, becoming who we needed to be in order to live out this marriage we sought. We are molded like clay, by God the potter, all through our lives. The finished product makes the best spouse or life mate. I honestly believe that Jerry and I click better now because of all the growing we both did before even meeting! Too bad there was no Jerry in high school, right? Well…it wasn’t meant to be then as it wasn’t the right time.  However, he was very well worth the wait. I love him dearly!

vday3Turns out love isn’t what I always thought it would be like. Its far better! This man I share my life with couldn’t have rode in on his silver Mustang fast enough, but at the right time! Though we don’t live in a castle in the distance, our little home is full of love. The kind that withstands the darkness, by embracing the light. With God all things stand strong.

So, now my eyes are opened to the real world. Its been 11 years since I graduated high school. My life has done a few 360’s during this time! I have lived, and I have learned. I am totally aware that I have a whole lot more to learn, as we are forever learning in being human. I am ever grateful to now be able to learn new things with my husband Jerry by my side.

In conclusion, if you are rollin’ solo this Valentine’s Day, don’t fret, my dear friend! We’ve all been there. I know it sucks, and it hurts like hell (maybe for some)…but one day, it will all be worth it. So, for now, you just need to keep on rockin’ and being who you are, stand your ground, love yourself, and never settle for less, because you are really and truly, one of a kind. Don’t let anyone tell you that you are anything less than beautiful!

Cards are sweet and chocolate is dandy, but its more than that. Real love is celebrated every day with a warm embrace, the gentle touch, the three special words said in all sincerity, kisses that forever ignite the fire, that spark…reminding you of where it all began…

So…Happy Month of Love, well,  Life of love, to be correct!

God bless!


*Candies image, courtesy Google images.