9/11

I keep seeing 9/11 everywhere. I woke up to 9:11 this morning. Pls pray for the world and people in danger. God speaks to me like this through numbers and has been for a few years now. God bless you all in Jesus’ Name.

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I Surrender All….Wilderness Update 8.20.17

So, BIG REVELATION!

After weeks of seeking deliverance and self deliverance, research, studying, and pretty much making this thing my idol (being freed from the molesting and raping demons) I think I finally got the point. All of this time God has been waiting on me to simply surrender to Him as He watched me from above as I scurried and hurried around trying to take control and do things my way. I have not fully surrendered. Jesus wants ALL of us, not 75% or however much we are willing to give Him.

I have not totally died to self and I have been reacting to God like He wanted to take my favorite toy when that’s certainly not the case. Jesus gave His ALL for me on the CROSS so I shouldn’t give Him any less than all of me. The love of GOD is amazing! I am just now beginning to understand the nature of my Father and how He is so kind and merciful. He is LOVE itself! I grew up in a pretty religious background and I had no idea what GRACE was…so far, I am drowning in the BLISS of my SAVIOR! We have to realize that we can stoop pretty low in this world. We can find ourselves doing things we never thought we would do and in places we said we would never go…The wages of sin is really…DEATH! The BIBLE is TRUE! The ONLY TRUTH under the sun!

God wants us to trust Him. I have not done that, but I am starting to. Today when the demonic attacks came upon me, I just ask Jesus to help me and take away the pain that feels like pinches and biting or the molesting. The tiny annoying torments cease instantly and the sexual attacks are becoming so much more bearable as He is removing them in His perfect way and time. I have actually moved to the backseat and let God have the steering wheel (I thought I did). It has only been one day, but I have seen my FATHER show up in such a MIGHTY and direct way…it blows my mind! He is growing my faith. I am so grateful, I don’t give thanks much at all but I am a work in progress 🙂

God is moving in my life in ways I’ve never imagined. I told Him I wasn’t testing Him but trusting Him to fight for me like in Exodus 14:14. He understands our hearts before we ever pray. He takes care of it all every time! He is soooo faithful! So this is what surrender feels like… This is peace. Thank YOU JESUS!

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The Worth of The Cross

Lying in bed last night as I was thinking about how terrible this demonic torment has been for months, it came to me: Look at Apostle Paul! Look at all he went through for the sake of Jesus and The Cross! He ENDURED so much! What patience and perseverance this Brother had in The LORD! After so many pity parties and begging God to take this thing away…how much am I willing to go through for Jesus and for The Cross? How much does He matter to me? Am I going to serve Him through the dark times also as I have so boldly proclaimed many times before all this happened? It’s so much easier to boast about my dedication for Christ than for me to walk it out with Him in patience when things get so tough.

All my life I’ve been quick to give up when things don’t go my way easily and quickly. I haven’t had much patience in all my 32 years on this planet.


Check out what Apostle Paul went through for Jesus’ sake.

2 Corinthians 11:16-33 (KJV)

16 I say again, let no man think me a fool; if otherwise, yet as a fool receive me, that I may boast myself a little.

17 That which I speak, I speak it not after the Lord, but as it were foolishly, in this confidence of boasting.

18 Seeing that many glory after the flesh, I will glory also.

19 For ye suffer fools gladly, seeing ye yourselves are wise.

20 For ye suffer, if a man bring you into bondage, if a man devour you, if a man take of you, if a man exalt himself, if a man smite you on the face.

21 I speak as concerning reproach, as though we had been weak. Howbeit whereinsoever any is bold, (I speak foolishly,) I am bold also.

22 Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I.

23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.

24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.

25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;

26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;

27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.

28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.

29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?

30 If I must needs glory, I will glory of the things which concern mine infirmities.

31 The God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which is blessed for evermore, knoweth that I lie not.

32 In Damascus the governor under Aretas the king kept the city of the damascenes with a garrison, desirous to apprehend me:

33 And through a window in a basket was I let down by the wall, and escaped his hands.


Trusting in Him and submitting to Him. Surrendering to The LORD… This video really speaks to me right now.

One day at a time. I believe God is cleansing me and purging me of the world and my carnal desires for the things of this world, known or unknown. I have fasted and done many deliverance. The demons are coming out but at a slow pace. The sexual demons are still violating me anytime 24/7 and I’m still having nightmares and annoying physical torment, but you know what… This morning I actually thank Him for what He is doing in me. I am not fully submitted to God. I am not fully dead to self. I am not truly surrendered to Him. I plan on seeking surrender to Jesus now more than ever. One day at a time. I must get into prayer alone with my Father in the quiet. It’s so easy to get caught up in this world as we are living in the technological age with so many distractions. Impatience is hard to shed when everything comes so instantly in this period of humanity. I confess I am impatient and need to surrender to God.

James 1:2-4 (KJV)

My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;

Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.


So, God bless you all. I hope this helps someone. Glory to God! He revealed this to me last night before falling asleep. Praise His Holy Name! He has NEVER given up on me! He will NOT give up on YOU either!

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Liberated? Deceived.

People fight to be “liberated” when they are actually being taken captive by deceiving spirits. So many are believing the lies. They aren’t set free, they are operating in demonic spirits who are deriving pleasure through their victims. Jesus came to set the captives free. You don’t have to live your life deceived in bondage.

We Can’t Be Slick

Published on Feb 25, 2017

Once we make the decision to trust God, we must begin to let go of the slick stuff we used to do to get money. God know that we all need to eat, have clothes, and have a roof over our head…..so step out on faith and let HIM provide for you.
Matthew 6:25-34 (ESV) Do Not Be Anxious 25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?[g] 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Me On The Altar.

God has given me the answer to my spiritual problem this year multiple times using different people and things. Instead of heeding any of His opportunities, each time I pushed them away and tried to do it my way or another way. The way He has for me I have always put aside because it was too hard and extreme for me. It’s like I want to know God so intimately but I want my desires too. I have cried out for The Lord to draw me into The very Heart of Him in recent years and He is doing that right now. I am going down whining, kicking, and screaming. As nasty as this spirit husband harassment has been you would think I would have already fasted and kicked this thing. But it’s not about this spirit husband. This is actually about God. This is about me no longer running from Him. I can’t have it both ways. Not anymore. I want to know God. I want to seek Him with all my heart and find Him. I want to break through in our relationship to a new level of fellowship with The Holy One.

This is me dying. This is the end of me. This is me putting my flesh (the lust of the flesh) on The Altar. This is painful. This is not what I want to do. I am beginning a fast at noon in a couple minutes and I have avoided this for months. I don’t want to be molested anymore and raped by unseen forces, aka the spirit husband. God is delivering me and giving me grace and everything I need for this, including the support of some amazing friends that are Family in Christ!

Today, I finally got it. It finally registered. This is how it’s going down. This fast is me surrendering to Jesus and letting Him take my walls down. I want to give Him all of me and hold nothing back. I have been shown so much information these past few months about the spirit realm and the demonic forces, the fact that everything has a spiritual root cause, and so much more. The Lord has revealed so much to me, including some big things about myself. I thought I knew it all already because of what He had shown me in leading me to Bible prophecy, but I was wrong. We will never learn it all, and pride is one of the things He has been taking down inside of me. Praise God!

Receiving the revelation this morning that I needed to fast as part of surrendering to God and dying to myself, really makes a difference. It doesn’t make it any easier in my flesh, but it helps me inside. I have to decide what matters most: God or food. God or my flesh. God or pleasure. God or me.

I’m learning this is about my will.


Check this out (from biblehub.com)

The Sin of Self-Will by R. Tuck
Psalm 81:11
But my people would not listen to my voice; and Israel would none of me.

Observe that the sin of which complaint is here made is not that Israel did not hearken, but that Israel would not hearken. God goes in behind the acts of disobedience, and is concerned with the spirit of wilfulness which found expression in the acts. The judgment of God upon them brings to view the special feature of their sin. “So I gave them up to the obduracy of their heart, that they should walk in their own counsels” (ver. 12).

I. SELF-WILL AS THE SIN INTO WHICH MEN FELL. Self-will is the perverted use of free will. Free will could be self-will if man were an independent creature. Free will must not be self-will, because man is a dependent creature. Free will became self-will, because man allowed himself to be guided by what seemed “pleasant to the eyes and good for food,” rather than by what he knew to be the will of him on whom he depended. Serving himself is the essence of sin for one who has been made dependent – in every way dependent upon God. What we have to counteract is the delusion that man is an independent being, and therefore may “follow the devices and desires of his own heart.” Illustrate from Daniel 5:28.

II. SELF-WILL AS THE SIN FROM WHICH MEN ARE DELIVERED. There are penalties into which men have brought themselves by their self will, and from these they need to be delivered. But it would be no effective redemption that dealt only with penalties. Deliverance from self-willedness, in a dependent creature, can only be effected by making him on whom he depends so infinitely attractive that he wins full trust and obedience. And this is accomplished by God’s manifestation of himself to men in the Person, life, and sacrifice of the Lord Jesus Christ.

III. SELF-WILL AS THE SIN INTO WHICH THE REDEEMED ARE IN DANGER OF FALLING BACK. Illustrate from the Israelites, as redeemed unto the service of Jehovah, from Egypt. Bring out

(1) the open ways, and

(2) the subtle ways, in which nowadays Christians may be tempted to the self-trust which breaks them away from their dependence on God. – R.T.


I watched a preacher online talking about dying to self yesterday. Today when I caught myself switching into the flesh during a conversation about something I am very opinionated about, I remembered what he said. This is the part of me that is yet to die. I don’t remember the exact words but I am so glad it came to mind again, praise God!

Don’t give up everyone. Jesus loves you! Father God is drawing His Church to a deeper relationship with Him I think. You are loved beyond measure by The One who died for you to be reconciled with Him for eternity!!! We cannot fathom how much we really mean to our Father and our Jesus! Praise Him today! No matter how dark it is or what you’re going through today!

*Final note: I just want to remind everyone not to be freaking out over demons and giving the kingdom of darkness any kind of glory. The battle is in the mind. I have been letting them get to me myself. Seriously, they are playing head games with you. No matter what you feel or see, God is greater! He NEVER leaves you! He is still there whenever you are under demonic attack! HE WILL MAKE A WAY for your deliverance!