A Heart Like Mine…

So many times in life I have felt misunderstood. For a very long time I felt I wasn’t good enough-I let other people, particularly teenage boys, tell me my worth. I felt fat and hideous. In reality, I was very, very beautiful- and radiant. I watched a couple of home videos the other night, dreading the on-screen-me. It was as plain as day in my mind the chubby teen I would see. Upon watching these clips I sat in shock. I had no idea I looked like this! I was far smaller than I imagined. I most definitely have been dealing with true Body Dysmorphic Disorder all my life. If only I could go back and live it over, knowing everything I had going for me… But I choose to focus on the road ahead now. I’ve been changed.

Adolescence was so difficult. Looking back, of course I now know that I was undiagnosed with Bipolar disorder. Even as far as 3rd grade I can recall being very depressed. In the midst of all of that I had no clue there was a far brighter future for me. I am sure if that truth existed then it does even now. There is more. I am sure of it.

So… In case you haven’t read yet…

There’s this song by country singer Miranda Lambert called “Heart Like Mine” in which she sings about being far from perfect but having confidence that Jesus understands. I suppose it can be taken in different ways, but for me this song is not about saying its okay to drink a lot or whatever. This song is how I feel. Liberated. Somebody finally gets me! Jesus once walked this earth in human form.

Watch Miranda share her take on the song and perform it in a private acoustic session.

Lyrics below.

“Heart Like Mine”

I ain’t the kind you take home to mama
I ain’t the kind to wear no ring
Somehow I always get stronger
When I’m on my second drinkEven though I hate to admit it
Sometimes I smoke cigarettes
The Christian folks say I should quit it
And I just smile and say “God Bless”Cause I heard Jesus He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand a heart like mineDaddy cried when he saw my tattoo
But said he loved me anyway
My brother got the brains of the family
So I thought I’d learn to singCause I heard Jesus He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand a heart like mine

I’ll fly away from it all one day
And I’ll fly away
These are the days that I will remember
When my names called on a roll
He’ll meet me with two long-stemmed glasses
And make a toast to me coming home

Cause I heard Jesus He drank wine
And I bet we’d get along just fine
He could calm a storm and heal the blind
And I bet He’d understand
Understand a heart like mine
Oh yes He would

 

 

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